This morning I woke up around 2 thinking about this gallery of flowers post. I worked on picking some of them out yesterday afternoon and early evening. Then I quit. After spending most of my day working through some admin stuff on this site behind the scenes, my brain was a bit fried. I decided to relax while watching a show. Father led me to Project Runway. A new show for me, hadn’t watched an episode before last night.
I clicked on the season He wanted me to watch. Simply incredible how creative and talented some of those designers are. Loved some of the creations. BUT…also Father was highlighting this guy on there. He wanted to have a conversation about him… it is a conversation we have been having for years. Another layer of truth to reveal to me. For me to reflect on. It was a very flamboyant gay guy. Obnoxiously so. Putting on a show for the people. The audience. He was over the top…his clothes. Makeup. Mannerisms. All about the dramatic appearance. Everyone look at me.
You know how a lot of gay guys work overtime to reject their manhood. Without having the sex change, they dress and act like a female instead of embracing the man they were created to be…that was this guy.
Stick a pin there. Let me come back to that.
My Playlist Today
When I woke up, Father brought up a couple of songs…so I know it is my playlist today…at least for now. It is a couple of songs I have heard off and on the last few days. Snippets He has played.
Sundance Head’s version of Etta James’ song, At Last. WOWSER…that man has PIPES. I watched him on The Voice. He was the winner for sure. I LOVE it when he holds those notes out in this song. My preference is Sundance’s version over Etta’s. His voice is incredible. I haven’t heard him sing a bad song.
The other song…Have you ever seen the rain by CCR. I know…you are scratching your head… a strange combination of songs to have on a playlist. They probably only go together in my head.
As was I listening to John yell some of those words out…I got to giggling. It reminds me of a conversation many years ago I had with a friend. We were discussing Tony Evans. He is a preacher in the Christian Religious System. He triggered my friend, she struggled to listen to him preach. She asked me….WHY does he have to yell??
The conversation led to fits of laughter because it is TRUE. He doesn’t talk…he yells.
Stick a pin there.
Hype
This led me to think about a few videos Father had me watch on FB last year. This woman calls herself a queen and she uploads these videos for her followers. In the videos, she shares prophetic words she gets from The Lord. I swear…she is like the gay guy on the show who was over-the-top dramatic in the obnoxious flamboyant mannerisms. She has all the same signs, patterns, and behavior of those in the charismatic, apostolic side of the Christian religious system.
All that…hype, drama, fake, over the top, a performance, a play, a player playing a part, a role, actors and actresses acting, a performance, a show, etc. Get the point? It is not real. Not authentic.
In her videos, she was doing what I have seen many do in the Christian Religious System. She would stop OFTEN…interrupt herself and say things like…Jesus, Jesus, Jesus. Glory Hallelujah. Praise Jesus. Can you say amen? God, you are so good. Hashtag glory. Hashtag good word. Hashtag whatever.
Sometimes, she would stop and babble in tongues. Lots of raising of the hands…etc.
Stick a pin there.
To Clarify
I want to clarify my heart here because when you read words written by someone, but you don’t know their heart motives, it is very easy to misunderstand.
I am not bashing these people. This woman, the gay guy, Tony as he yells, John as he yells out the lyrics, etc.
I have perfect peace if you want to behave the way these people do. You get that right and privilege just like they do. It takes all types of people to make this world such an interesting place to live. Sometimes I need to see things in this world to help me understand myself. 🤷♀️
Learning Opportunities
When my kids were young and we would be out and about in public, on occasion we would see poor behavior by other children. It would be a topic of conversation on the way home. I would ask them…how did that make you feel seeing them behave in that manner. As they shared their feelings on it, I would say…then you should take note…to NOT act that way. Exercise self-control.
For me…the world is my school. Every single moment is a learning opportunity. When I see behavior I like…I choose to adapt and adopt that behavior. When I see behavior I DON’T like…I choose to KEEP that behavior OUT of my life. It is about learning what I like and don’t like and changing to be what I do like. SO I CAN LIKE MYSELF. SEE? Make the necessary improvements in myself. It truly is about setting boundaries for yourself. Who you will be and not be. What you will do and not do. A very satisfying way to live…to become intimate with yourself in that way.
I am ok with others choosing to live differently than I live. The boundaries in our beliefs and behaviors separate me…set me apart from others. We need variety in this world.
The Reminder
As I reflected on all these things above…the gallery of flowers, John yelling those lyrics out, the preacher who yells, the obnoxiously flamboyant gay guy, the Christian queen who is saturated in hype…along with my preferences in life…it fits with a long-time conversation Father and I have been having for years.
I don’t like fake. I just don’t.
Never been a fan of counterfeit things in life. Even fake people.
It makes so much more sense to me now why I love nature as much as I do. All things nature. All things natural…and WHY I love taking pictures of flowers.
Flowers are Real
Flowers are real. Their beauty is real. They are not trying to be someone or something they are not. The show they put on…is real. Purely displaying Father’s artistry.
No…
- Drama
- Pretense
- Pretending
- Make-up
- Hype
- Manipulation
- Impure motives
- Selfish agenda
Just…
- Real
- Raw
- Transparent
- Noble
- Pure
- Right
- Naturally beautiful
THAT is why I love flowers so much.
Their natural beauty and created intent are on display for all to see.
Nature doesn’t ever pretend to be something it is not…good or bad. Animals are what they are. Thunderstorms are what they are. The grass is what it is.
People want to pretend to be someone they are not.
Isn’t that crazy??? 😳
Being Real
Thinking about the woman who uploads videos on social media, I remember when I saw her for the first time. I was telling Father…I can’t watch this. Too sickening for me. Skimming is what I did. I skimmed through portions of a video. It was all I could take of it.
An hour-long video…could have been shortened to 20 minutes had she cut out all that drama, hype, and garbage…and just been real. Simply said what she felt led to share instead of putting on a religious performance. Personally…then I could have stood to sit and watch it.
To me…it was sad. Why do people think they NEED all the hype to be heard or to be accepted? 🤔
What happened to transparency in this world? People just being real? Authenticity?
Masks
So many masks in today’s society. People think they need to build a false identity to be acceptable to others. The world sells the Kool-Aid that you are not acceptable to others as you are inside. Don’t show weakness… or show pain. We can’t be our true authentic selves, so we make someone up. In part because we don’t like ourselves. Most don’t even know their real selves.
The enemy has stolen our identity. As the enemy, he plants the tares or weed seeds of lies and deception in our minds as children…stealing our true identity. The person we were created to be…to build on the truth. Instead, using our lie-based belief system…we build our own identity. Satan is the master identity thief. He will rob your house…leaving you with nothing. AND we help him. We push away the truth about who we are because the lies he plants in our hearts and minds FEEL better than the truth Christ wants us to grab a hold of. 😳
Pansies
We are a bunch of weak pansies who don’t want to FEEL the pain the lies we believe inflict on us. Then dig those weeds and their roots up out of the gardens of our hearts and minds, which removes the pain. 🤨
Anyway…just some thoughts this morning.
I hope you enjoy my gallery of flowers. I see these flowers now with a whole new appreciation of who they are. Real. I love that. Realness is beautiful. Transparency is beautiful. Truth is beautiful.
Give it a try. If people reject you when you are being real, transparent, and telling the truth…then they shouldn’t be in your life, to begin with. Something to consider. 🤷♀️