Feeling rather chatty today. Like a chatty Cathy actually.
You know the kind of people you say hi to…then they start telling you their whole life story?
Yep…I am feeling it today. That’s me.
I am so happy I could burst. Felt like I should share my gladness…my supreme joy…with someone else. 😆
Share the love so to speak.
It feels like I won a million dollars.
I am completely baffled as to why, but today is a day of blessings of epic proportions. It feels true to me.
Following Father keeps life interesting. Never a dull moment for me.
Unseasonably Warm
I wanted to take a walk this morning. However, it is raining, and I realized I left my rain suit in Indiana at my son’s house. Living in the Wilderness and moving every few weeks to months has meant I have had my belongings scattered in different states at times. When I moved this time, I thought I had gotten every last box and possession I owned. Not. 😩 My rain gear is hanging in the closet by my son’s front door. Going to have to make a trip back someday and get it…or just buy some new gear. 🤔 My preference is to buy new at this point in life…it was my old motorcycle rain gear. I am starting a new fresh life so why not get new??? 😜
Since I didn’t have my gear, I decided to forego the walk today. Instead, I chose to sit on the back deck and watch the rain while listening to it hit the metal roof. Music to my ears. 😍 So thankful it is unseasonably warm today so I can enjoy the outdoors while staying dry under a roof. The featured image is of some pine needles I have been staring at this morning while it rains. I love how the water drops hang off the needles. So many birds here…a large variety too. Bird-watching has always been a thrill for me. Nature ROCKS! 🥰
Death and Curses…HELL
For the last five years of my life, Father chained me in Hell. Yoked me to death and curses. WOW. W.O.W.S.E.R. That was awful. Excruciating pain. Immeasurable suffering. Indescribable. Unbelievable. No words to express how bad those years were. Horror.
I can’t tell you how glad I am to be free of that place.
I am in love with the truth…Christ. The truth is what sets YOU FREE.
Life and Blessings…Heaven
Obedience sure has its downsides…but it most certainly has its perks too. LIFE and BLESSINGS!
You have to persevere and suffer through…ALL the WAY through to get to the other side. On this side…blessings.
Back in November, while I was in Michigan. Father said to me…what if I make you an offer you can’t refuse?
SUPER SKEPTICAL.
You don’t spend five years locked up in Hell and not get defensive. DEFENSE! Think PTSD…you are always waiting on the next hit. Arms up…guarding your face…a wall around your heart blocking anything that might come your way…you KNOW your body is going to get beaten to a pulp and your heart shredded if you don’t.
I asked Him…what is the offer?
No response.
The Offer
He let that sit for about 48 hours…then when I asked again…what is the offer…He said…what if I can make all your dreams come true?
Again. SUPER SKEPTICAL.
S.U.P.E.R. 🤨
You could say I came through that fire with a major trust issue. Trusted Him 100% completely when I went in…but about halfway through…He lost my heart.
I told Him yesterday…I don’t trust you anymore with my heart. I am all good with the knowledge portion…the teachings are solid…but my heart…sealed up tight buddy. You destroyed it. I own it now and I alone hold the key. He assures me He will do whatever it takes to win it back.
We shall see. SKEPTICAL. See a theme here?
Justice
The last couple of weeks, I have been working on a teaching regarding justice. OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So much fun!!!!!!
I am giddy with glee and excitement. Poor Vanessa! I have been burning up her phone…calls and messages. I can hardly wait to put it on the site. It is my first one of many.
It feels to me like my life is FINALLY heading in the right direction. As if…He might just be working to make my dreams come true for me.
For 20 years now, I have dreamed of teaching…teaching the Bride. Helping Her get cleaned up. Purified. Ready to meet Her MAN.
Feed My Sheep
Many years ago, Father said to me…three different times…FEED My Sheep. Irritated me each time because I had no platform to teach from. My response was extremely sassy.
The time is coming soon. 20 years is a long time to wait…and still waiting but I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel now. Makes me happy in every way. Gladness!!!!!!!!
No more hate. No more anger. No more bitterness.
Love. Peace. Joy.
The Fire
One more quick word before I quit.
After moving, I went back through every item and packed a huge load up to take off for donation. Borrowed a van so I could put it all in one load. Filled that baby up. GOOD RIDDANCE! So much stuff gone now. Throwing out the old to leave room for the new.
As I went through everything…Father and I had a bit of an argument. *Sigh* I argue…He stands. That is how it always goes.
I ended the argument by threatening to burn down my entire life’s work if He didn’t back down.
A few days later…I took 30 years’ worth of handwritten notes…THOUSANDS of pages of notes…and burned them. Effectively burning my kingdom to the ground.
I think it is significant…don’t you? 🤣
I called Vanessa and asked her if I had lost my mind…she was in total agreement. Burn those babies up. I did.
👁️👁️ 😳 👀
It was the right thing to do but made my heart do a little race…my gut did the little butterfly dance…and my mind questioned my sanity for about 24 hours. However, a couple of weeks later…I am solid on the decision. Even dumped my digital notebooks.
Starting all over…FRESH. A FRESH NEW LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It feels like I took a healthy dump…flushed the toilet…and walked away a happy happy woman.
The future is looking bright my family. The SON is shining!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😎
MUCH LOVE TO YOU ALL!!!!!! Seriously…I AM overflowing with love in my heart!
LOVE and INTIMACY!!!!! I AM all about it! 🫀❤️💙
Have a FANtabulous DAY!
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Just makes me smile.