Kingdom Stuff

It has been one wild ride this week. Hard to describe my journey to people. It is C.R.A.Z.Y. I always think of the Dukes of Hazzard…Crazy Cooter coming at you. In my line of work…more like Crazy Crystal coming at ya. 😜 All kingdom stuff! His ways are crazy…no joke.

I have much to say in this post. Gotta get a lot off my chest so to speak. Haven’t a clue where I am going with this…or how to make it fit together in order for it all to make sense. Hoping it magically fits together as I go along. Not holding my breath…so don’t hold yours either. Just jump on board my magic carpet ride with a sense of wonder. That is all I can do at this point in time. 🤷‍♀️

Details

So many little bitty details in my life are super important. Every tiny detail impacts my life greatly. In my posts, I must leave many of them out for there is just not enough room to type them all up.

One major detail is that for the last six years, I have been living in two places at once. One is the natural realm in my natural life. The other one is in the spirit realm. It has been a fantastical realm…a story land. A fantasy playing out in my mind I could not escape. I would say around April or May of this year, that fantasy changed. It was like that story ended and another one began. Maybe it was Act One and Act Two. I am not sure what happened…I just know the first story changed. Maybe He hit pause…I don’t know. I was super stoked about that…it was a miserable story.

The new story is baffling me. I am struggling to sort it out. It feels like a war. I see a red dragon…and the Lion King. Currently, I don’t know what to make of it all. 🤷‍♀️

I will fill you in on some of the details as we go.

Consumed

One important detail…I am consumed with this story.

When I am in…I am ALL in. 100% completely absorbed. CONSUMED. All thoughts are on the one topic. 24/7…I am obsessed with whatever it is that Father wants me consumed by. That is important to note.

So…back in the spring, He changed my focus onto new studies. As I have stated in other posts, I have been studying YouTube videos focused mainly on the Christian Religious System or C.R.S for short.

The studies have consumed my life. Every moment of my days and nights is wrapped up in what I am getting from the videos. Thinking, questioning, and discussing.

I know some of this is a repeat…but necessary. Some of the videos I watch in their entirety…very very few. IF they are short. Mostly, I skim videos and/or read the titles…and some comments. Also, I discovered transcripts. WOW…LOVE the transcripts…they save me hours. I see a video Father wants me to take in…I click on the transcript and skim. Botta bing…botta boom…Crystal Ann Laura has what she needed. Transcripts are brilliant! Genius! High five! Applause for whoever thought of that. Saves Crystal a lot of frustration…a lot of eye rolls…a lot of irritation in every way. 🤷‍♀️

Since the spring, my life has been consumed 100% with studying the C.R.S via YouTube. This also means…my poor family has to hear non-stop about my studies. Vanessa and Bobbi are my go-to girls who listen to my processing all this kingdom stuff. Hannah has her own battles right now, so she gets very little of my words. Instead, I am her listening ear.

Love

The lyrics are even better in a haunting way. It speaks of love. A man loving a woman who got ripped away from him. His angel…yet He is waiting on her. True love.

It made me think of two things this week.

One…the love Christ has for His Bride. He has been waiting for Her. Still waiting. His love for Her is true. True love…a Man who laid down His life and died for the love of His life. Such a beautiful love. A Man who said in His heart…she is more important than Me. A true servant. Such a beautiful love story of the love a Man has for His Woman. His Body. Loving Her…His own Body. He loves His Wife like He loves Himself. See?

Two…it makes me think of Father and I. Our love. I tell Him…you better call me…your angel. You better call me…your goddess divine. 🤷‍♀️ I earned those titles in every way. Why? Because of my love for Him. I laid my life down and died for Him. All to bring Him pleasure…great pleasure. I did this…while Crystal Ann was getting NO pleasure. I often told Him…I am spreading my legs for you out of obedience…so hurry and come, so I can be done with this thing. Don’t worry about pleasuring Crystal…cuz Crystal is just F.I.N.E. 🤯 😂

He has been waiting for me. For me to be ready. He has been waiting a LONG time. Melts my heart in every possible way. I feel so loved.

This week…as I have played this song on repeat at night…it has comforted my heart when I needed to be reminded of His love for me while feeling the rage inside.

Words

This list of words is just a few words I constantly heard when I was inside that division and studying the apostolic…charismatic division of the C.R.S from the outside. I prefer to call them kingdom people. It fits in my head better.

As I have stated before on this blog, while studying this people group, I have gotten angry. Anger I have struggled to understand.

Let’s back up a bit. MANY years ago, I told Father…I want to KNOW every inch of you. I want to KNOW you. Know how you feel. Know what you think. I want to love what you love. Hate what you hate. I didn’t want Him to withhold anything from me. Nothing.

This little detail is pertinent in my life. Cuz…He has been slowly granting me what I wanted…even though at times I question in hindsight…did I really want that?

During this kingdom people study…He has given me His anger about the whole mess of arrogance they walk in. Wowser bowser…not pretty…and not pleasant.

The words we use…expose the condition of our hearts. He says in His word…out of the heart…the mouth speaks.

I can’t stand arrogance. I loathe it. Absolutely loathe it. What is worse…is if He makes me stare at it and study it. I have zero desire to watch arrogant people live so arrogantly. Crystal Ann eats humble pie. That is what I have built my life on…so to be forced to stare at arrogant people…not my idea of fun. At all…in any way. Makes for a grumpy Crystal Ann.

The Dragon

In the fury, I feel like I am getting ready to crawl out of my body as the dragon. Because of the fury, I am going to breathe fire out of my mouth all over the entire Earth. Burn it all. It feels like I have to bring death and destruction to everyone and everything. The entire Earth must burn…burn in Hell…but also burn in the purification fire. The entire Earth must be rid of the evil…it must all be burned in its entirety so the good can spring up and flourish. Like a forest fire takes out the trees, but new ones sprout up to rebuild the forest.

Only the righteous will survive the purification fires of Hell and Heaven.

The dragon must spew the fire pent up within so the Earth can be purged and renewed.

It makes me think of the New Heaven and the New Earth. The old must pass away…pass through fires to be purified.

The rage inside the dragon is unbearable. The pain of it…has been hard to contain. Hard to live with. Painful…so very painful. Like I need to breathe the fire of rage out, so I can be free of the pain. The wrath needs released. A place of release…the Earth is that place it must go.

I will get to where the pain stems from in a bit.

Vanessa says if I could breathe fire on the Earth as a dragon, Ahnalaya Ann would think she has the coolest Grandma ever. 😂

Lion King

The second thing I see in the fury…rage…anger…is the Lion King. It is the male lion…but also the female lion. ROARING.

I feel as if I am going to come out of my body, and roar as the lion roars…over the entire Earth. Roaring over the Pride land.

He has been reminding me of a promise He gave me back in 2008…”they will hear you roar.”

It was after I had been run out of the first church Christians ran me out of. To comfort me, He said those words to me. Had no clue what it meant…but it was comforting to me, so I went with it. 🤷‍♀️

I think I am nearing my time of ROARING over the Earth. It hurts inside. I need to roar. Feeling like I need to rip, tear, and devour my prey. I want their blood.

I keep saying these things…I feel like I NEED four things…death, destruction, justice, and judgment.

They must happen to satisfy my fury and rage. I must devour my prey as a hungry lion. Fill my belly full with the bloody meat of the enemy. Not only do I want to burn them all completely…I want to eat their meat. Consume them all. Not leave one left. No one escapes the fires of Hell. No one escapes the painful fury of the dragon and the lion.

The roar is the warning He is coming to devour His prey.

All will be consumed like a fire licks everything up completely. Only ashes left in the end.

Arrogance

One reason for the fury is the arrogance of man. Mankind in general. I have been studying the arrogance of mankind for six years now. I am done with the arrogance of man. First, He made me sit in the arrogance of the worldly man. Those that are openly wicked. Full of themselves. Puffed up and prideful. Man in complete rebellion to Father. Flipping Him off blatantly. No care in this world of who He is and what He has done for them.

Then we moved into sitting and studying the arrogance in the C.R.S. The people who claim to carry the love of Christ within them. Those who are supposed to be humble and obedient. Laying their lives down for the wicked men and women of this world.

When I got home last night, Hannah was cooking us dinner. While sitting around the table eating, I announced my discovery…how I loathe the kingdom people. I thought Hannah was going to fall out of her chair laughing. She had a lot to say about that. Her first comment was…you are just now figuring this out because we knew that long ago. Her and Bobbi had some rather funny remarks about this. To keep this blog clean, I won’t repeat their examples. Needless to say, I was entertainment.

One thing Hannah said…if you could choose between a Christian and a meth head with a gun in his hand…you would choose the meth head every time.

True story.

I can’t stand the self-righteousness in the C.R.S. It is full of self-righteousness. Give me the ones who KNOW they are broken, over the ones who THINK they KNOW the truth already.

Arrogant Hearts

To repeat…out of the heart…our mouths speak.

With that said…our words expose our belief system. The lies we believe and the truths we believe. If you have the ears to hear…you will hear what the people around you believe about themselves and the world around them. You have to listen…and discern. It is important.

Back to the list of words the kingdom people use.

Over the years, these words have driven me crazy. Some of the words…I don’t even understand. Like I have said before…shift…did you feel the shift in the spirit realm. Heard that one before…and I am wondering what they are talking about. What shift? Did you take a shit???

They use these words…to puff themselves up. Like a puffer fish. It makes them appear as if they are bigger than they are. Exposes the arrogance in their hearts. It is wicked. They think way too highly of themselves.

Power and Authority

In that list of words, you will see and feel how these words and many others they use…make them FEEL and believe as if they have some kind of power and authority they do NOT have.

For example, I have listened to them say over and over again…their decrees…their declarations…their prayers…their worship is changing things in Heaven and Earth. Moving angels…aligning things in Heaven. Bringing anointing on things and people.

Really??? Are you kidding me??? You REALLY believe Father needs you to decree and declare things to advance His Kingdom?

If you do…you think WAY too highly of yourself.

You are one pixel…in billions of pixels in this picture. Get real with your bad self buddy…you just aren’t all that and a bag of chips.

Kingdom Assignments

Let me give you another example. Kingdom assignments.

The last couple of pictures…and the next couple of pictures…are photos taken while I was on “kingdom assignments.”

Here is the difference between me and these kingdom Christian people.

Crystal…humble. Kingdom Christians…arrogant.

Never once have I ever said or even considered my “kingdom assignments” as such.

Here is how I described it to my ex one time trying to help him understand why I needed to do what Father was commanding me to do.

It is a date. Father is asking me on a date…to meet Him at a certain place at a certain time. I am not missing my date with Him.

When I meet Him there…He is going to share something from His heart…to mine.

Buddy…I am not missing that date. Come Hell or high water…Crystal Ann Laura IS going to be at that spot at that time. No man or beast will stop me. I will do whatever needs done to get there. You can ask any of my family members…they will confirm it. Once Crystal Ann has made up her mind…no changing it. We are going to obey…no matter the cost. Get in my way…I will destroy you…in a heartbeat with no remorse. No one will come between Father and I.

Love of Heart

I obey…out of the love in my heart for Him. It is THAT simple. Not because of some power trip. I was not looking for power and authority. Not looking to tell people I was some important person in His Kingdom. I have spent the last 30-plus years obeying “kingdom assignments” out of love for Him…while the only people who really got who I was doing it for and with…was my children.

I have had VERY FEW close friends in my life. None of them got me. They could never understand my love and devotion to Father. Think Job…my friends were like Job’s friends. My children have been the pillars of my life…my support system. Without them…I wouldn’t have made it this far.

Even when Donovan was a child, Father was using that boy to steer me in the direction I was to go.

I have never felt like I needed to decree or declare something…I simply needed to agree with Father on what He had planned.

Instead of feeling like I needed to become some important warrior in His Kingdom having divine strategies with an important position, title, and anointing…I have simply believed I needed to be obedient to whatever step He told me to take. 🤷‍♀️

It is out of a love in my heart for Him…not being a lover of self.

What I see in the C.R.S…is a bunch of people who love self. Always elevating self instead of the ONE who actually deserves to be elevated. People arrogantly putting themselves on some pedestal they don’t belong on.

1.4 Million

One video I recently watched a bit of was from a conservative Christian bashing the charismatic crazies. These videos have been something to see. I almost prefer the conservatives who believe Holy Spirit died or got fired because they don’t believe He speaks to people today. They are a bit easier to tolerate. Both sides in the system are arrogant, but the charismatic chaos is almost unbearable to me at this point in my life.

In this video, the producer was speaking of one of the popular “prophets” in the apostolic division. This guy had the tax records for the church. The “prophet” was making 1.4 million a year. I watched a bit of his preaching. He made absolutely no sense. No sense at all. It was all babble. He used a bunch of big puffed-up spiritual words to sound powerful and important. He thinks he has some kind of authority in Father’s Kingdom. Completely deceived.

Here is a “prophet and apostle” who claims authority from Father…who is stealing from Father’s children. A wicked…wicked man.

The woman I was speaking of above…who has lots of followers…she too is making good money off the backs of Father’s children.

If they were actually teaching His truth…I would have been fine with it…but they are teaching lies and deception. They are distorting His Kingdom for their selfish gain.

Disgusting. Repulsive. They should burn in the fires of Hell for what they are doing in His name.

Shame should become their new name.

Tables are Turning

Christ is coming once again to turn the money tables over in the temples within the C.R.S. He is going to expose the Pharisees within the religious systems of this world…that includes Christianity…as well as Judaism.

Many in Christianity have made a lot of money in the name of Christ…and haven’t given the people the answers they needed.

Why?

Because they don’t have the answers…yet they arrogantly think they do. They use big words to sound smart and attach titles to their names so the masses will think they have some kind of expertise.

Meanwhile, the broken…are hurting and have absolutely no help from the ONLY ONE who can help them…Christ.

Christ is the only one who can set them free and heal their broken hearts and the very ones who are called to help those people…shun them. Run them off. Proudly puff themselves up and act holier than thou.

Unimaginable

I can’t imagine what these people would be like if Father did it the way they are prophesying He will do it. In my head, the people would flock to them by the masses.

The thought was absolutely horrifying to me.

These people have already elevated themselves on a huge platform…a very tall pedestal for all the world to see…how much worse would their arrogance become if Father proved them right?

I told Him…for the record…I am completely opposed to this notion.

Instead…prove them all wrong. Expose them for the counterfeits they are. DO NOT PUFF them up any further. DO NOT elevate them any more than they already have elevated themselves.

Wealth Transfer

We came back around to the wealth transfer. A hot topic in the apostolic community. All these self-righteous people believe they are going to strike it rich. Instead of preaching repentance and living it…they are preaching and teaching prosperity. Christians are getting ready to become rich with a life of peace while Christ is going to do a government takedown.

This morning, Father reminded me of something I ask for when meeting new people. Not everyone…but certain people I meet who I connect with…I always say the same thing when I walk away. Give me their heart.

I have a list of people from over the years whom I have said to Father…give me that person’s heart. I love them…I want their heart.

To me…that is the most valuable thing a person can give me…their heart. That is where the value is in a man. Man, woman, or child…the most valuable thing they can give you…is their heart.

Right there…is what His Kingdom is all about. That is where the wealth is contained. In the hearts of man.

I gave Father my heart 30-plus years ago…and with my heart…comes everything. Because I gave Him my heart…I withhold nothing from Him.

See the value?

Wicked…to the Righteous

After He reminded me of my heart…and how I always say…give me their heart…He then gave me a vision. It was of these leaders who have all these followers…their followers…were transferred to me.

Their hearts…given over to me. The wealth of the wicked…given to the righteous.

These wicked people want your money and your affirmation to prop themselves up…so they feel better about themselves.

Father and I…we want your heart. Your whole heart. 100% of it.

If you give it to us…we will heal the brokenness contained within. If you will commit your heart to us 100%…we will heal it…100%.

You will get your original investment back. He will always match your investment. The great thing is…He will give you back more than you invest…just to bless you.

His Kingdom

His Kingdom is an ancient one built on ancient principles hidden within His word. His word is old…but still so very valid today.

It is built on humility, love, and intimacy.

It is about the heart. Love…such a simple concept…and so very beautiful.

A love so beautiful that He has been waiting for thousands of years…just for you. To win YOUR heart.

Think of the song A Thousand Years by Christina Perri. He truly has loved you for a thousand years…Christ will love you for not only a thousand more…but for eternity.

Don’t let His love slip away from you. Don’t reject that kind of love.

Only a fool would reject that kind of love. Don’t be that fool.

Government

These charismatic Christian people are like the members of Judaism back in the days of the Roman government. The similarities are crazy. In Christ’s day, they wanted Christ to rise up and overthrow the Roman government. The charismatics want Christ to return and rescue them from the American government. To stop the governmental oppression.

Government oppression is a problem. However, even with a righteous government…you are still enslaved if you haven’t been set free in your hearts and your minds from the lies and deception you believe about self and the world around you. Your main enemy is not your government. It is the enemy within you.

The kingdom Christ wants to overthrow in this world…is the one you have built in your heart and mind. He wants YOU to let Him be LORD of your life…not you. He wants to set you free from YOU. Your flesh. The fool inside of you. The foolish man inside of you who is leading you down the wrong path.

There is no point in setting you free from a wicked governmental rule if you are still enslaved by the lies and deception within YOU.

Why? Because your soul will still be doomed to Hell for eternity. An eternity of wicked governmental rule and slavery.

It is really that simple.

Love Him…accept His love…and He will set you free and heal your heart at the same time.

Worry about your issues…and we will work on that wicked government.

Sounds like a great deal to me. How about you? Take the deal?