I felt like Father wanted me to share my heart about a conversation He and I have been having today regarding limitations.
It is always interesting how He speaks to me. How He works in my life…how He works in man’s life.
The order of His conversations and lessons…always baffles me. I love His knowledge of times and events. I want that knowledge too. All of it. 😳 I need to KNOW what He knows.
A few weekends ago, Greg sent me a message about the weekend. Friday night was a football game. Golf course on Saturday and Ellis Park on Sunday finished up attending dinner with friends.
I was bummed…I was headed to Michigan and couldn’t make the events.
Two things on my list…checking Ellis Park out…and trying my hand at golf.
Saturday Morning
Saturday morning, we started off walking Tonto for his morning jaunt around the neighborhood. Ellis Park was next. Unfortunately, the horses weren’t racing but I got a tour of the place. 😆
After Ellis Park, we headed to the golf course for lessons and practice. Later, he took me to dinner at my favorite local restaurant. We ended the evening watching some of my favorite clips from The Graham Norton Show. His show is great entertainment for me. 😂
Father wanted to teach me some things…but also bring me to a conclusion. In order for Him to get me there…certain things needed to happen in a specific order to help me reach the conclusion He wanted me to reach.
In my last post, I mentioned Father had asked me…what if I take you to a land far, far away. I wasn’t sure I wanted to go. I was suspect of Him. Crystal Ann is not always agreeable to His conditions and provisions. I have learned to ask for more information before I agree now. Don’t know if it is maturity, wisdom, or a lack of trust. 🤷♀️ Maybe all three wrapped up together.
Puzzle Pieces
I have to share a couple of puzzle pieces that are important reasons why I decided I DO want Him to take me to this land far, far away.
Recently, I felt like I had a rib out on my right side.
Sounds crazy if you are not a chiropractic regular…if you are…you may get what I am saying here.
I put up with the pain for a few days, then I felt like Father said…Crystal…make an appointment with your doctor.
I did.
Appointment
I love my chiropractor…he and I get along swimmingly. We are both INFJs and have much in common in processing. We get each other. I adore the man…truly.
I and my lifestyle puzzle him. 😂
He walks in and asks me what was wrong. I say to him…I think I have a rib out.
He looks quizzically at me and asks me what makes me think that.
I proceeded to tell him my reasons.
One…I am having pain that I can’t reach. It is under my right clavicle deep within.
Two…it hurts when I inhale only. The deeper I inhale…the more jabbing pain I get. It doesn’t hurt on the exhale.
He says to me…sounds like you have a rib out…first or second. 🤔
After he was done working me over, he said to me…your diagnosis was correct. 😂
Indeed it was…I know my body. 😍
When I was leaving, he shared I might need to come back another time in the next week or so. I agreed and said I would make an appointment if it wasn’t 100% in a week. He was good. I was good.
Next Up
I recently hurt my foot. Haven’t a clue what I did.
Getting old is not for the weak. 🤷♀️
During the garage sale last weekend, Hannah was worried about my foot. I kept telling her…it will heal eventually. 🤷♀️
I have been avoiding the doctor and crutches. After trying a variety of options to make this situation more comfortable, I settled on keeping the foot ace wrapped and in my hiking boot. To me…this equals a walking boot an orthopedic would put on my foot if I broke something in there.
My diagnosis so far is either I strained a tendon or ligament…or I have a hairline fracture of one of my metatarsal bones. I was literally just walking. Crazy stuff. Something snapped. Swelling, bruising…🤷♀️.
Golfing
Despite the pain, I decided to go golfing. 🤷♀️
With my first swing, I decided my rib wasn’t quite at 100% so I was going to have to call my favorite chiro when the office opened back up. 😂 We need 100% here because Crystal Ann lives an active lifestyle and I need my body functioning at full capacity.
It was funny because the entire time out there, Greg was watching my form. He is a great teacher. I told him once…I can hear the pool teacher there. He said…it is all about geometry. He is a master at pool…along with golf. Lots of mathematics in both activities.
While watching my form, he noticed I wasn’t lining my feet up correctly at times. This morning, as I was looking through the photos, I saw very clearly…I was putting all my weight on that right foot and keeping the left toes pointed out. I was doing that as a protective stance to keep the foot out of pain. 😂
I sent him a text message this morning relating my diagnostic findings. While standing there, I couldn’t have said that…but looking at the photos it was so clear to me I was protecting that foot in how I was standing.
Also…just as a note…I do not wear hiking boots with shorts. I wear my Chacos.
Limitations
This morning when I stepped down on my foot, I decided maybe all the walking yesterday wasn’t the smartest move on my part. 😂 🤨 I am not the brightest bulb in the shed at times.
What is funny to me…is on Friday I was sitting at the table thinking I should go hiking over the weekend and take some pictures. This processing was occurring while I was sitting down at the table with my foot up on the chair.
When I got up from the table, I was reminded of my foot issues. 😂 I started laughing at myself because minutes before I was planning a hiking trip. 🤦♀️ What was I thinking????
Ok…so Father was bringing me to this point. A place of logically thinking through my limitations.
I said to Him this morning…if you want me to go see a doctor about my foot, then tell me. I will go. Don’t really want to be stubborn and hard-headed about things. 🤨
Annoyed
I am limited by the vessel I live in.
Annoying. That annoys me. Let me say that again…limitations annoy me. 🙄
I want freedom. True freedom…in all areas of life.
My neighbor told Bobbi the other day…Crystal needs to put roots down.
She doesn’t want me to leave her again. I am her friend.
After spending the day thinking about limitations, I am ready to put down roots…but in a land far, far away. I want to fly. I am ready to go…to do…to be.
My desire is for Father to remove all limitations from me. Set me free. Remove all chains that hold me down to this world here.
I want to ascend…with Him. Be with Him…live in His House. Manage it for Him.
I told Him this morning…I am in agreement. Take me…take me to that land far, far away that you have prepared for me.
Despite the fact I have no idea really what that means, what that looks like, or what that will cost me, I want to go because I hate the limitations placed on me here. Taking flight sounds Heavenly to me.
He always gets His way despite the fact I can be rather argumentative at times. 😆 He must love me to put up with me. 🤷♀️
Have a MARVY day! I am planning on it as well!