Following Father always keeps life interesting. He never does anything like man would do it. In fact, it seems like His ways are the exact opposite of man’s at times. As I have mentioned previously, Vanessa has been building a blog. It is not quite finished yet…but super close. She has been working hard behind the scenes to get the blog this far.
Last night, I knew today’s post was supposed to be about family. The featured image above this post was stuck in my head. Father pinned it at the forefront of my mind’s eye. It was quite obvious that was my next post. 😆 I was waiting on the words to be downloaded but nothing was coming. This morning, Vanessa sent me a link to look things over and while I was checking it out…Father said…announce it.
I called her to share the news and get her thoughts on the matter. Here is why…man’s ways of doing blogs…completely different than the way I am doing it. 🤣 Vanessa and I have been having this same discussion for years now. If I was following man…this whole blogging experience would run according to man’s ways of building a business. My flesh would be in charge…living inside of the blog business box…operating in the fashion of the underbelly of the beast. I have smarticles and I know how to build a business…man’s ways. That is NOT how I have chosen to go about this. So much more adventurous to follow Him. Extremely frustrating at times…but I believe the rewards will be worth it in the end. He is my prize. 😍
Launch Date
Vanessa and I both know…I have a launch date. Only Father knows that date right now. He and I have been discussing it…regularly. That being said…for now…my readership is limited. I have mixed feelings about that. A part of me loves the idea that probably only a handful of people are reading this blog. I have a few personal friends that talk to me about my writings behind the scenes. Their feedback always encourages me. Thankful for their support.
My flesh prefers anonymity. I love being behind the scenes…just doing life with the small inner circle of people I love. Some people feel like they need to have tons of “friends” and/or people in their life. NOT me. I am good with a few solid people in my inner circle to build stable, secure, intimate, eternal relationships. I have no desire to build something with someone that will not last. Been there…done that. No thanks. I am about building for eternity. Commitment.
Having said that…going public with who I am and my radical relationship with Father…was not my plan in life. 🤣 Let’s just announce to the whole world that even though I am not crazy…I sound crazy. I have the appearance of craziness and delusion. Who in their right mind WANTS to do that? 🤨 Years ago, I would say to Him…you are driving me crazy…I am going to lose my mind. Here are a couple of things He said to me during those arguments.
“You are of sound mind.”
“You have the heart of David and the mind of Christ.”
Wow…ok…I guess that is supposed to make me feel better. I have asked Him many times in the past…is that supposed to make me feel better…because I don’t feel better. 🤣 Not sure why He keeps my sassy mouth around. It must be true love. 🤷♀️
Publicity
Another part of me…wants people to see, hear, and know the truth. To accept it. I want to help the Bride. It is what I was created to do…so it is this battle of my flesh saying stay hidden vs. His Spirit saying…you gotta teach Her. Duality.
The yin and yang within. The push and the pull. His Spirit DRIVING me to a certain place and my flesh dragging my feet screaming…WAIT a cotton-picking minute…where are we going and why.
In the past…He had to carry me…kicking and screaming…biting and clawing the entire way. BUT…we got there. I am all good now. The worst is over for me. All good from here. I am ready to go…just waiting on Him to push the launch button.
Growth
Since I published this originally, Father began to show Vanessa some truths.
One…she had some arrogance within her that needed dealt with. She needed to see, know, and understand the truth that she had much growing to do yet before she could share with people what he has put in her heart to share.
What we learned was this…Father was showing Vanessa that in the future…she would have a blog…sharing His truths with people. Until then…she had some schooling to do.
He started her on this journey…and he will bring it to completion. Until that time…the blog is on hold. He is hitting a pause button for her in this endeavor. Lessons to be learned in the future.
If you have a humble heart…you are always open to learning!
Have a marvy day!
