I felt the need to do a post out of sheer happiness this morning. I AM MOVING OUT of the Wilderness! Glory be!!!! So happy I could explode. Truly!!!
SO…let’s talk about this.
This morning, one of the visions I saw was of the Wilderness. It was like a drone shot. A little movie clip that played. I was the drone. Like I was flying and getting the shot.
At first, it was up close and personal with the sand. I was hovering above it. Then I started to lift, and I could see some weeds in it… grass-like. I flew off and over the desert until I rose above the mountain. Then I could see the whole shot of where I had been traveling.
It was close up and personal then an overview shot. Then…I was gone…out of the Wilderness. Lifted out! Moved out.
When I first saw the image, I knew it was the Wilderness. Father and I spent all late afternoon and evening yesterday discussing the Wilderness. This concept of the kingdom people in Christianity claiming their life struggles are a spiritual Wilderness…biblically speaking. We included Hannah in the discussion during the evening time.
My first thought when seeing this image was maybe it was regarding our discussion from the day before.
John The Baptist
BUT…then He reminded me of something He once said to me. I was a voice calling out/crying out from the Wilderness.
A picture of John. I am a picture of SO SO many people and stories. Mind-boggling. Used to hurt my brain.
When I hopped in the shower this morning, this time He said…COMING OUT OF THE WILDERNESS!!!!!!!!!!! 🔥💃🏻🕺
Finally
It is finally over. Wowser Bowser Man…out of my mind giddy.
I feel squeaky clean too. The last seven years feel over. Peaceful. Good. Healthy. Clean.
It happened…yet it’s almost like it never happened. It feels like I was in a dream…then I woke up. Like Dorothy on Wizard of Oz. Right back where I started in my head seven years ago. It all just disappeared. Crazy!!!!!!!!!!! CRAZY COOL!!!!!!!!!!!
I used to think the dream was a nightmare. Somewhere along the way, my perception shifted to neutral. Now…nothing. 😳🤯😜🤷♀️
I don’t understand His power. Baffles me. I love it. I am back to the normal me…only a new and improved version of me.
It feels like I moved out of the Wilderness in my mind this morning. I haven’t physically left Hannah’s house yet…but my heart and mind have. My mind has moved on to other places. Mainly the future. It is looking bright!!!!!! ☀️🌞😎 You better start wearing shades around me…going to glow!!! 😜 Joy abounds!!!!! Let the waters flow.
Photos
Thought I would share a bit about the photos. My Wilderness journey reminds me of visiting the deserts out West.
Dry. HOT! Scorching hot! Desolate places.
However, growth is possible. Even trees can grow in the desert. Christ as the Tree of Life…can grow in desolate places within mankind.
I prefer having plentiful trees, water, and food. 🤷♀️
I didn’t want my dog to get out of the van. Afraid he would burn his paws on the pavement getting out. 😳
Yesterday
Hannah and I have a local coffee shop we frequent. It is a great place to sit and work. I wrote yesterday’s blog post there. Spent the whole morning into the early afternoon typing away at a table while sipping my tea at the coffee shop.
I love the mobility I have…doing what I do. Freedom there. Not stuck inside an office all day every day. What I need fits in my backpack. Wonderfulness!!!
I was determined to finish the post BEFORE I ate lunch. Kind of stubborn like that at times. Once I finished my post, I walked over to another kind of Cafe and had a bit of food…and more tea…while I reread what I wrote before I hit publish.
While at the coffee shop, I encountered two preachers I once knew from my old church days. At first, I didn’t even recognize either one of them. It has been years…and we have gotten older. 😂
It was interesting because they both had wronged me…and I didn’t even remember it. I was doing my thing, minding my own business. Saw them both and kept working. We all went about our business.
This morning, Father reminded me about the negative situations I encountered with them both. What fascinated me was…I had forgotten about those things. Saw them and was totally wrapped up in my blog post thoughts.
Healing is amazing!
Healing
Going back to His power…it is amazing. It fascinates me. I want so badly to understand how He works. How does He take something super painful…and take all the pain away just by speaking truth? How is it…that truth can set you free from ANYTHING? What does that power look like on the other side? I gotta KNOW.
For years, I have asked on repeat…how do you do that? How does your power work? What does it look like? I want to see it from all aspects. Musically. Artistically. Chemistry. Electrical. Engineering. Architectural. Down to the molecular level and beyond.
I gotta KNOW. The need to see it and know it burns within me. This ole gal needs to understand the mechanical aspects of how it works. There is structure, order, and form to it. Super complex.
It makes me think of the Wilderness discussion we have been having about one particular individual in the C.R.S. She has the appearance of living in the Wilderness.
YET, I was seeing red flags that were concerning me about her story. Father brought me to a conclusion this morning. A painful one this morning. The woman has some mental illness. She has a mixture of flesh, Father’s Spirit, and demonic spirits at play in her life…in addition to some physical mental issues. What the struggle for me is…children are involved. The woman believes her homelessness and inability to feed her children is Father’s leading…not her own flesh-based decisions…tied to demonic influence.
Compassion
One of the things Father told me He would give me in full by the time my Wilderness journey was over…was compassion. He had a LONG list of things He said He would give me in full.
It always reminds me of the song Heathens. That song means more to me than this world will ever know. Powerful song between Father and I. Sweet intimate moments all wrapped up with that song.
I feel compassion for this woman and her children. The children are powerless to change how their mother is living her life. Telling her children it is Father leading them to live like they are…wow. Have no words for that. Just makes my heart ache for those babies.
Live
I have a burning desire to go live. I feel like I need to skyrocket somewhere. This afternoon, my plan is to sit and seek Father on how to get this off the ground. I gotta go. It feels imperative. Urgent.
What comes to mind is something a friend of mine said to me years ago. Shortly after I started mentoring her/coaching her…she said this to me. You don’t get the right to sit quietly back and hide what you have inside. You have to share what you know.
Long story short. Father had me enter her life and befriend her. I saw many issues that needed to be worked on. Patiently, I waited until Father said it was time to share with her. That moment came in our lives. I spoke a few short words to her that radically changed her. Radically changed her marriage. Unbeknownst to both of us, her husband had already decided to file for divorce. He was tired of fighting her and always losing the battle.
After I called her out on her rebellion to her husband’s leading, she crawled to him that evening on her hands and knees…begging him to forgive her.
They rectified the situation. The two are still married today…happily.
I will never forget the moment of him…thanking me and sharing with me about his decision to divorce her. I worked with my friend for a number of years before Father moved us on in our lives.
True to her words…she started getting me speaking engagements. She was my biggest cheerleader back then. She was a woman who understood how the truths I speak can positively change a life. A marriage. A family. Had I stayed in the area, I probably would have a radically different life today.
Coaching
The compassion in me for children…is making me feel like I need to get started. Also…I want to teach. I want to coach people. It feels like I am ready. I am free and clear now. Clean.
I think seeing those preachers was planned ahead of time by Father. 😜 He does that stuff. I want to show the world what a true Shepherd/Pastor looks like. What His power feels like. How it can transform a life. A marriage. A family.
The world needs the truth. Man needs to see the benefits of living by it.
Alrighty then…my little teapot has been tipped over and completely poured out.
Going to sit this afternoon in the shade with this nice breeze and see if I can get direction from Father about going live now. This ole gal is itching to get started. The past is gone…the new is here. Time to get ‘er done!
HAVE a FANTABULOUS DAY!!!!!!!!!! Having one myself! 😍