I have a very strange feeling this evening. I feel as if I have shifted into neutral and I am now coasting. 😂
Sounds a little bonkers, doesn’t it? I live in the Twilight Zone. It is how I roll. 🤷♀️
My first car was a manual transmission. Love driving a stick shift. I like to pretend like I am a race car driver. No joke! It fits my personality. I love speed and I love shifting those gears. The thrill is feeling the motor rev up and then when I shift…I get this really satisfied feeling of being in charge of the power underneath my feet.
I remember as a teenager, my friend Eric came over. He had purchased a really old truck. It was striped two-toned blue. What was really cool about the truck…it was a three on the tree. He asked me if I wanted to take it for a spin. I felt so honored he would let me drive his new (old) truck. Shifting that old truck was the coolest thing I had ever done up to that point in my life. I will never forget that drive. It was a high for me. I felt special. 😍
Steve
Steve was a long-time mentor of mine. He has been given the gift of words of knowledge and words of prophecy.
I remember a conversation we had once about Father. Steve was sharing with me how for a time in his life, he would be up after a service and then down the next day. He disliked the highs and lows in ministry. Steve shared with me, that he had found a neutral place.
I could not wrap my head around this idea of neutrality in his relationship with Father.
One of the things I considered as I meditated on this concept was…maybe this is just a man thing. Since men are much different from women from an emotional perspective, I wondered if his emotions were more neutral because he was a man. It is a legitimate thought from a logical and biological viewpoint.
I couldn’t see how I was ever going to get my emotions to a neutral place regarding certain promises Father had given me. Plus…I am excessive and extreme…a woman of great fiery passion.
How does a woman of passion become neutral????? 🤯 I was struggling to comprehend the capabilities here. BUT…I was willing and told Father this. Years later, I think I finally arrived at that place. 😍
Prophecies
I have mentioned previously, Father had me studying videos on YouTube.
First, we did the conservatives vs. the liberals in the Christian Religious System. Then we moved on to restoration videos. Then we moved into the apostolic and charismatic videos of people sharing prophecies. Some of those “words” were about the Esther woman…the Esther anointing. Then we moved into general prophecies regarding America’s future.
We are covering it all it seems.
His point in doing this was to help me get to that neutral place…which is actually just being in agreement with Him.
SO FREAKING COOL!!!! 💙
The videos were triggering me. Exposing lie-based emotions within. Each time, I would sit with Father and sort the wheat from the tares in my heart and my mind. We were cleaning it up, so my emotions were pure and in line with His truth.
This brought my emotions to a neutral place. See??? How awesome is that!!!
I think incredibly awesome!!! 😆
Deception
This evening, I took Tonto, my pupper dog, to the river to play ball with him. He loves catching the balls. He likes to show off and jump high into the air. I tell him he better enjoy jumping while he is young because getting old makes it difficult to jump like that. 😂
He wore himself out, so he dropped down in front of the water bowl…too lazy to stand to drink his water.
While he was resting, I was processing this neutrality thing. I am obsessive. I will check my emotions on a subject…then check and recheck again just to make sure I am neutral. Before I move on to the next subject, I need to be good to go.
I told Vanessa the other day, I think there is a great deception going on regarding the prophecies I am seeing and hearing. Some videos I don’t actually watch…some I just read the titles and a few comments. Some videos I watch enough to get the gist of it.
Coming home tonight after being convinced I had shifted into neutral, I shared with Father some beliefs I had. Things He has said to me about me and about the future. My future. The future of America. The future of the Bride of Christ. Some of these things don’t line up with what so many people are saying.
There is a lot of hype. A lot of marketing. A lot of what I believe are misinterpretations. Flesh mixed in with the Spirit. It has been causing me to doubt what I have been getting for many years. This was the point of my work…to clean up the doubt within.
Feel Good
Tonight, I think I finally got to that place of understanding what is going on. The understanding feels mighty good to me.
I have learned the hard way and by experience…it never looks and feels like what you see in the Spirit realm. Man’s flesh gets caught up in the grandness of what you see and hear.
What Father is going to do for us is indeed grand and good…but I believe the order, the timing, and the way it will play out…is going to shock people. It isn’t going to be what they thought it would be.
I am excited to watch the show play out.
When I was young, I attended church in the Christian Religious System. In our little town, we had two spinster women. I will never forget something one of them said one time. She was talking about the Book of Revelation. She loved that book because it was the only book she would get to be a part of. Father highlighted that statement to me. He reminds me of it often. I am a part of the Book of Revelation. What an honor it is to be part of something significant in life. Thankfully, I am a positive part of it…not a negative part. 😜 ❤️
Felt led to share my thoughts from today.
The featured image is a picture Bobbi took for me today. I told her…I like my hair today. When those days hit, I need a picture to commemorate the good hair day. 😂