I believe it is time for me to come out of hiding. Thinking maybe Father is getting ready to make some moves here. I have reasons for that which I will touch on in this post.
One…I keep seeing a vision I saw years ago of the cars lined up coming to see the game in the movie Field of Dreams. Father told me years ago…if you build it…they will come.
Well…I have built it. I am ready for the people to come.
Feeling super clean. Prepared. Ready to leave with my King. It feels like everything is done and I am waiting on Christ to make His move.
Yesterday
I spent most of the day at Mr. Mitchell Man’s house. The two of us cleaned out his storage unit and moved all the stuff to his new garage. It was delivered earlier this week.
On the way to meet him at the storage unit, I turned the radio on.
Because I walk with the moon under my feet, every step I take is guided by Father’s Spirit…Holy Spirit. I have a very low tolerance for the flesh of man as a result. Ask my children, they will back me up. I can only take so much of it before I stop you and/or walk out of the room. I have a very tiny bubble I am allowed to walk in. This is why I have a very small inner circle. The people around me…know my tolerance level.
This means I don’t watch or listen to anything without the guidance of Holy Spirit. When I turn the radio on, I don’t listen to stations. I listen to songs. I hit the scan button until I find a song I am supposed to listen to. Sometimes I take a spin around the stations and shut it off. Other times, I might listen to a few songs before I turn it off. Every once in a while, I will hear one song, shut it off, and type the song in Apple Music to play on repeat.
Yesterday, I turned the radio on, and the first song was Nothing Else Matters by Metallica. As soon as it was over, I turned the radio off and put it on repeat on my phone.
This song is special to my heart because of what it means to me regarding love and intimacy. It is one piece of this puzzle.
Vision
Another piece of this puzzle is a vision I saw many years ago. In it, I was being carried. I was in my wedding dress…but I was dead. Limp as a noodle.
That vision used to cause me severe anxiety. I spent many hours doing inner healing work to get free from the anxiety of it. Yesterday, I saw that vision again. This time…I realized it was my life. It represented my life. Crystal Ann Laura has already died. My flesh is dead and now Christ lives within me.
With the vision, I was reminded of an important concept Father and I discussed during my skydiving experiences back in 2020. I have shared that story somewhere on this blog.
To summarize…
- I can trust Father with my life.
- I would love skydiving.
- I would love my tandem skydiving instructor. My partner.
These three things were/are important to me.
It went along with another vision I have seen recently. In it, I stepped off a cliff. I fell hundreds of feet into the water. I knew it would be the death of me, but I walked right off that cliff.
Yesterday, I told Father…I am choosing to keep walking and step off that cliff…to my death. I am trusting you with my life…and my death.
Hammock Time
After Mitchell and I finished our work, Ahnalaya Ann wanted to stay outside. Vanessa had a horrible headache. I told her I could stay outside with Ahnalaya Ann while she and Archer laid down for a nap.
We now have a beautiful new hammock in Mitchell’s backyard. He is making it a sweet place to be. The swing is a HUGE hit with every single person in the fam. We ALL love hammocks, so the hammock is another dreamy place to hang.
While Ahnalaya played in the swing, I stretched out in the hammock. Wonderfulness!!!
The conversation Father and I had in the hammock was a sweet one. I felt like He was saying it was time to get married. Time for love and intimacy. Layers of it.
Father, Son, Spirit, and man.
I am thrilled…beyond words thrilled. It is a portion of trust. Trusting my partner. Trusting I will be safe taking that leap of faith…stepping off the cliff…jumping out of the plane.
I believe it is time for the Second Adam and Eve to come together.
Seeing ME
I have said before on this blog…not only have I been hidden from the masses…but Father also hid me from me.
For years, I have been working to clean myself up. Die to my nasty bad self and live for Him. Remove me. Receive Christ. Been a SUPER hard work that has taken over 30 years to achieve this level thus far.
During that time, I had to clean up my perception of self. I had a self-destructive mindset. That is gone. Completely.
Now…I see ME. As He sees me…at the level He has allowed me to…current day. I am starting to understand what He meant when he said to me…you GREATLY underestimate your value and worth.
A series of things along with years of work has led me to a radically different perspective of self.
The post…Transformational Specialist is radically important to my own heart and mind. Lots of clarity came to me…about me. I am not one to compare myself to others. I don’t have the time to do that usually…nor the inclination.
While studying the Christian Religious System…especially the false prophets and apostles…I started to understand how I was different than them. Kind of in a negative light.
The transformational post converted my thoughts into a positive light. With this post, I realized…wow…I have been RADICALLY different in how I view people and treat people compared to the commoners of this world.
I am SUPER PROUD of the woman I am. The woman I have been all these years.
Love
I was thinking about my heart motives behind my life. It has been love. The greatest of these…is love. To put it simply…I have loved people. In spite of them. 😂
No shit. Some people have been HARD to love…but I loved them anyway.
Anyone who says I don’t have patience…should be slapped. I AM Patience. The definition of.
For years, I have poured out Christ’s love onto people who rejected it. Dismissed it. Took advantage of it. Looked down on me as if I am nothing and have no value. Many have hated me. Instead of exacting revenge and vengeance, I forgave them…out of love.
That is incredible. I am starting to see how my set-apartness…is beautiful.
Screenshots Below
Another piece of this puzzle pertains to the screenshots below of a convo between Vanessa and I this morning.
DON’T get your panties in a wad over Vanessa’s Hitler comment. Hitler was evil. Father’s heart and intents are good. If you get offended…deal with your shit. It belongs to you. Your negative emotions are yours to clean up and get healed from…we are clean.
On my newsfeed this morning, the video in the message I sent Vanessa popped up. I sent it to her for her to watch. What follows is our convo about the video.
If it is still up when you read this…I would highly recommend watching it. It is a good overall summary of so much of what I have said for 30 years. I differ with him on some things, but it is a good depiction of the Christian Religious System in general.
With this video, it was another piece of how different I am. How different I will run His nation. Radical difference in how the Bride of Christ/His body will function.
Ten Years Old
This morning, I realized at ten years old, I had all this information inside me. It is a crazy crazy story of how Father works. I remember so clearly being in 4th grade…sitting at my desk…and reaching certain conclusions about life.
In hindsight, I know that was Father downloading crazy amounts of truth into me. All completely oblivious to me at the time. That moment of time shaped who I became. I was a child with many convictions before I became an adult woman with many convictions.
A long story…for another time.
Teachings
Over the last couple of days, I have had a certain teaching in my mind to do a video on. Been chewing and stewing on that thing.
This morning, I was thinking more seriously about starting that formal teaching. I believe it is time now.
In addition, I have been considering recording a video of a formal teaching on the transformational specialist. Been rolling it around in my mind as to how to organize it.
Then Vanessa sends me the text message below giving me feedback on that post. I believe it is confirmation I should do a video on it.
I see the value in it even more so now after her feedback.
It goes along with the other formal teaching I have been considering doing a video on. They are actually tied together.
SO…I am thinking it is time to go. Time to start letting the truth flow out to the masses now. The two teachings I am going to work on this afternoon…are valuable. Powerful, I think…if you want the truth. If you want freedom.
Out of Hiding
Now that I can see me…the truth about me…I think it is time for the people to see me. How cool is that? I am thinking pretty freaking cool. 😎
I believe it is time for me to go with the flow and come out of hiding. To partner with the truth…bringing freedom and healing to the masses.
I couldn’t be happier about that right now.
There ya go. Now ya know.