I am titling this post Preparing because this morning Father said to me…prepare for His return. His appearance.
What does that mean exactly? Idk. 🤷♀️
Per my S.O.P., I said…ok. 👌✅👍
I mulled that over for a bit. After my initial ok response…I added to it. I said to Him…I don’t know what that means to you. Don’t know how to prepare. Don’t know what His appearing/return looks like. Not sure what needs preparing. SO…just make it so. If I need to say and/or do something…make me say/do it. Make it happen.
After some inner reflection, I came to the conclusion…maybe that wasn’t a word about me. 🤔 As I have said before, I have already told Him…I am ready. If you are waiting on me, you are spinning your wheels…cuz I was ready yesterday. I have peace about whatever happens. NO anxiety about anything. None. Nada. Zero. Zilch. Can’t find any concerns about my future at all. Feeling rather good about my life/future/path. 🤷♀️ Even though…I have no idea what is ahead of me really.
Fast forward a bit…I arrived at my new favorite portable office space…Mr. Mitchell Man’s garage…Father said…prepare for death.
I said…ok. 👍✅👌
Again…perfect peace. ✌️😍 If I die, I die. 🤷♀️ Good as gold about the matter. 😂 Haven’t a freaking clue what He means by any of that…but I am good with it all.
Photos
Let me touch briefly on the photos in this post. They are Bobbi, Mitchell, and Mavis in D.C. this past March at the Cherry Blossom Festival. These are a few Bobbi sent me while they were there.
I felt like I was supposed to go also. Hannah called me one day ready to go. She wanted to line the dates up…but I had been stewing and chewing over a few things about Father. I was a bit rankled with Him and the situation I was in. I told Hannah…not going this year unless Father meets certain requirements. Holding out and sticking to my guns so to speak. Establishing some boundaries.
The desire to attend was in my heart…but the desire for something greater to be given to me…was overriding my then current desire. I will make that festival…but when I go…this time…it will be under different circumstances. Enough said on that. 😜
Rewind
Going to rewind a bit here. All day yesterday, I worked on the Trump/America concerns. By the end of the day, I felt like I made some great progress on what Father has been saying to me over the years about the matter.
At the beginning of the day, I was processing with Bobbilicious. She needed the truck so I came over early knowing I would be hanging out during the day. When I shared my list of concerns along with the puzzle pieces about the situation, she said…you are starting to scare me.
Then I moved into the camper to spend the day with Vanessa. Worked most of the day quietly. Nearing the end of the day, I asked her to help me finish some things up. Once again, I shared with her the things I had shared with Bobbi. Her reaction was the same as Bobbi’s.
Thankful they were on board with me.
While at Bobbi’s that morning, I was standing at the stove waiting on my tea water to boil. As I was sharing with her the pieces, I began to cry. My heart was full of grief. I realized then…it was grief. I was grieving. It was death. I knew then…it was all Father. His heart. I was on the right track.
Heart of Gold
For a brief period in the day, Father and I discussed this blog. I told Him once again…if you don’t provide…I am going to go into the world and get a job. This time…I am not coming back. If I leave, I am leaving for good. The blog will be gone for good.
He had some things to say about that. One of the things He said to me was that the blog was gold. It was gold because of my heart. My heart is gold…the heart of the blog is me. We are gold.
My response was…my heart will be gold with or without the blog. 🤷♀️ Having a blog or not having a blog doesn’t change the status of my heart. Logical facts here.
Crystal Ann Laura is good as gold. No matter where I go, what I do, or who I am with. I am me. I have done the work…going to enjoy the fruits within no matter what happens in the future.
If He wants me to continue this path, then He is going to have to put His checkbook where His mouth is. Going to have to be a man of action…not merely words. Crystal Ann Laura is done with status quo here. Ready to go. Move on. Start a new life.
Nothing here tying me down any longer. 🤩
Marriage
Fast forward now to EARLY this morning. Father was talking to me about marriage. Specifically, Donovan and Vanessa’s marriage. We spent quite a bit of time looking back over their relationship. From the beginning to current day.
We looked at the struggles they have had…and how I held their hands and walked them both through those issues. How they both persevered and grew through them.
A beautiful story for sure. Had planned on sharing it here today, but…found out a few minutes ago, I have a date with a hiking trail in the woods in one hour. Gotta shorten this post up dramatically if I have ANY hope in getting it done before I leave. 😂
After the marriage convo, this is when Father said…prepare for His return. His appearance.
Fast forward to breakfast…Father said to me…without a vision…the people perish.
He then reminded me of my dreams. I have mentioned this on the blog before. Even as a child, I wanted a healthy marriage…and a healthy family. Love and intimacy…the beauty of it in relationships in my life.
Pushing Forward
Unfortunately/fortunately…depending on how you look at it…my two previous husbands didn’t have the same desires I had. Their goals in life were different than mine. They were not interested in health of body, soul, and spirit. Not interested in unity. They were not visionary thinkers.
I can’t remember a time when I didn’t have those desires in my heart.
The moment I realized I was a toxic human being and had an eternal soul in my womb…my life radically changed. My life changed because my heart was for the child forming within me. Out of love, I wanted my child/children to have LIFE…even though I had never had LIFE.
Choosing to follow Christ turned my world right side up…even though many have said I went in the wrong direction. It was the right direction for me and my children…and those coming behind me/us.
I pushed forward with my visions…despite walking this road without a man in unity beside me. I couldn’t give up my dreams of having a healthy family. Wasn’t going to happen. My mind was rock solid on how I was going to direct my children. Despite the opposition.
I had a heart to obey Father…my dream was to live in such a way…it would convince my offspring…following Christ in obedience was also the way for them to walk. I wanted them to give their hearts to Him as well.
Discipline
Some time ago, Hannah asked if I would sit down and ask Father about some things for her. As always, I say…you ask…I will listen. Ask away.
I can’t remember what she asked for…my mind has climbed a hundred mountains since then…but I remember the reaction I had to what Father said.
He began to show me some things He was going to do in Hannah’s life. I knew she wasn’t going to like what He said.
I told her…I need to be alone with Father just a bit. Immediately, I stepped outside. Had a seat in the patio chair and started a discussion about some of the things He had said.
He was Crystal Clear with me on the matter.
The image I saw was this. He was Father. I was Mother. Hannah was our daughter. She was getting her ass spanked because of some disobedient acts in the past. As Judge, He had looked at the charges, convicted her as guilty, and sentenced her for her crimes against Him. As the Accountant, her bills were due. Payments must be rendered.
As Mother, I had to be on board with His disciplinary actions with her. I needed to support Him. Be unified with Him. It was a boundary.
Per my S.O.P., I said ok. 👍✅👌
After this discussion, I went back in the house. I told Hannah…we are going to do it just like Father says it will be done. The matter is decided…so don’t ask me…to ask Him to change His mind. Not going to do it.
Idolatry
As the Father of His Household, He disciplines the children He loves. At times, His children need their asses spanked. Correction is a loving matter. It gives mankind the opportunity to get in line with His plans. Obedience to His laws are paramount here people.
Mankind has gone off the rails and gotten too big for their britches. Think WAY too highly of their bad selves. They must fall. The prideful and arrogant must fall. The pedestals man has built…must come down.
Mankind needs to see who is really in charge. Who truly contains the power here.
Discipline is good. Not evil.
Discipline is coming and that is a good thing for the children to experience. It will save many souls in the process. Humble them. Humility is key.
Father’s plans for the people and this country…are not man’s plans. The flesh of man is always in opposition to His Spirit.
With these reminders, I feel much better about the future. Despite what it means to the people. I see it from His perspective…not my own.
Just like I have said to Hannah in the past…I say to the Bride now…we are going to do it just like Father wants it done. As His partner, I am going to carry it out just like He tells me to do so. Not going to deviate to the right or to the left. It will be as the Judge has decided the matter to be executed. Don’t ask Him or I to change our minds…or change the plans. Obedience is key.
The Vision
Father’s vision…is to have a healthy family. A healthy covenant community. Healthy marriages. Healthy children. Families who are fulfilled in Him…instead of addicted to the many gods/idol/strongholds in this world.
The only place you can find true fulfillment and satisfaction is in Him. He is the one who gives you true value and worth.
Without Christ in us…we are negative in value and worth. He alone is worthy. He alone is valuable.
That is a hard concept for mankind to grasp when they seek temporary gains in this world. Mankind believes the only place you get value is in what you can achieve here man’s ways.
On two separate occasions, I have appeared in court and been dismissed completely because I don’t have the credentials man says I need to have any “intelligence” worth knowing. I shake my head at their ignorance. In front of your face, you have a treasure beyond measure, and you are too blind to see the truth.
Man’s ways are foolishness and lead to death. Father’s ways lead to life for eternity. He is the greater treasure. His intelligence is beyond measure. No man can set an appropriate price tag on the Creator of this Universe.
Instead, they elevate the created. Foolish.
A Recent Text
I feel led to share a recent text I sent Hannah at 2 in the morning. 😂 Sleep is elusive at times…my kids are used to me. I feel it is appropriate for the Bride to read. It was too long to screenshot…imagine that…so I am copying and pasting below.
I feel like Father is showing me you need the eyes to see and a heart to know the value of the greater things He has in His Kingdom in store for you.
You still have the Rhonda mindset of hoarding, flea markets, and garage sales. Taking/buying old used things from others because you can’t afford the higher class goods He wants you to have.
It is the spiritual riches we talked about last night…vs…the Earthly riches mankind focuses on.
The greater gifts and works are His Spirit. Him. Everything about Him.
You still have too much focus on you. Also on this world. Worldly things.
Let’s look at the example of a common topic of you. Your future. Your status in the future.
You want certain things. To do certain things. Have certain things. Your mindset is that if you don’t get to do certain things…your value is less.
Let’s then compare that to me and my life. I will be 54 very shortly here. I am covered in debt. Broke. Poverty level according to this government. Homeless. Hated. Rejected by MANY. Considered crazy. Delusional. Ignorant. Clueless.
Many fight me at every turn. No matter what I say and do. Have VERY few friends in my life. Still hidden. Have no titles in the world except mom. No status but a nobody of value and worth. The least of the least.
By your own standards and expectations for your future…you can judge me as a failure. I don’t have the things you are pining for.
Do you think you have greater value and worth than I?
Do you deserve a better life than I have lived?
Do you deserve the things you desire to have…over me?
You are still thinking too highly of yourself. Still thinking of self instead of Him. Your focus must convert to Him instead of you.
I have spent my life thinking about Him. Elevating Him instead of me. This has brought me to the end of me. Lowered me to elevate Him where He belongs.
You have to get you off the pedestal you have placed yourself on. You must tear down that platform you stand on.
Your kingdom is built out of garage sale finds, cheap flea market treasures, and junk you hoard in your heart and mind that has little to no value.
When you step off your platform, you will gain the true treasures in Life. Him.
This life here is about demoting yourself so when you get there…the riches in Him you built here are made accessible to you in fullness there.
You have no value. He IS the value. Him. As a person. The greatest treasure to have IS Him. You want things instead of Him. You are exchanging cheap worldly shit for Him.
Nothing Else Matters But Him.
He didn’t give you life for you. He gave you life for Him. Without Him you have no life. In the end, none of it matters for you if you don’t have an intimate relationship with Him.
In your pursuit of things for you to make you happy…you are believing those THINGS will make you happy. Mere trinkets. You are doing that while the greatest treasure of all is standing there waiting on you to choose to pursue HIM.
You are pursuing the created things over the Creator.
Choose to pursue Him over it ALL. Then and only then will you find true happiness. Happiness is found in His arms. In Him.
Mindset
Mankind needs a different mindset about life. A different viewpoint. Different worldview.
Man focuses on the temporal life instead of focusing on the eternal life.
If you want to spend eternity in Heaven…that is your long-term goal. Then you need to set short-term goals to make sure you get there…and stay on the right path all along the way.
That means convictions. Faith. Faith is convictions of truth. Him. In order to have convictions of truth…you must be intimate with the truth. Christ. You can’t please Father any other way. There is no other way into Heaven…than to be intimate with the truth and walking by the truth.
It is only in this way…you will begin to be worthy because only HE is worthy. When you replace you…with Him…then and only then will YOU in HIM…become worthy to be united with royalty.
Alarm
Ok…my alarm is telling me I must get ready for my 5-mile hike. Wowser…super excited about this little adventure.
Have a marvy day!!! Planning on it myself. Going to hit publish and come back to edit later. Gotta get this sent out into the land of no return so I can keep moving forward on this journey out of this space/place.
Going to see what Father plans on showing me while I am trekking through the woods this afternoon. I am sure whatever it is…it will be swell!!! 😆