I have three reasons why I titled this post The Walk. The first one is because I recently said to Hannah later in the evening…let’s go to the riverfront for a walk. She was thrilled with the idea. This ole gal needed some nature time. Since I was in the city, the river was the closest thing that would satisfy me. I prefer trees and water in isolation…sometimes…you take what you can get. 🤷♀️
The pictures that follow are from our evening riverfront walk. We got to watch the sunset. It was a pretty one. 🌅 Hannah took all the photos on this post except the airtime one below. I have reasons why I put my I AM Clearly Crystal logo on the photos even though my kids took the photos instead of me. One of those reasons…obedience of course. Another reason, everything you see that is mine…is also an inheritance for my children and grandchildren. It also belongs to my seed that comes behind me. It belongs to the future generations.
The girls have been kind of territorial over their inheritance. Hannah is pretty particular about what I pitch.
At different times on this journey, I have considered deleting the blog. I have a vast variety of reasons why I considered quitting and moving on to something else. Bobbi has always vetoed this notion. She says…the blog is our family scrapbook…I don’t want you deleting it.
The girls tend to talk sense into me when I am making no sense. They talk me down off the ledge when I am tempted to jump ship. Couldn’t have done this without them. 🥰
Dinner Plans
The second reason pertains to my walk. Meaning…my walk with Christ.
Over the last few months, Hannah has been doing some clean-up work pertaining to the past few years. As I have mentioned previously, she had dishonored the family and has been working to make amends.
She has been meeting with family members to ask questions so she can apologize and right her wrongs. Yesterday afternoon, she sent me a text asking if I had dinner plans for the evening.
She wanted to meet with me and have our conversation.
My Walk
At dinner, I informed her…I really don’t have anything to say. I have nothing against you. Having this conversation…meeting…was very fruitful for me. It had me go back and reflect once again on my nature. My character. The woman I am and have consistently been for many years.
I don’t hold grudges. It is not in my nature to hold unforgiveness toward people. It is death…and I choose life.
What I told Hannah was two things.
One…as she hurt me…I did the necessary inner healing on MY shit…my pain. I dealt with my stuff. Once it was dealt with…it was gone. I exchanged my lies with Father’s truth, and I was good to go. No more pain. No more negative thoughts about the situation. I moved forward with the peace of Jesus Christ. What was left…was just the truth of the issues that belonged to her. Not me. It was about having healthy boundaries and exercising them.
Two…when Father brought us back together again, I verbalized to her all issues that I felt needed to be dealt with. We had many long conversations about the last few years. Hannah has had a radical heart change which fixed any issues we had.
Q & A
She had her questions of course…as always. Hannah asked if I could share with her any of the inner healing topics I did regarding her during that time. I honestly couldn’t remember them. For me…once I have the truth, I move on in my heart and mind.
It is done and it is clean.
It is Father’s power…and that power is incredible to neutralize such painful moments in life. The truth sets you free from all the pain. I love His power. It is my desire to see it and understand it intimately. Experientially in a whole new way.
Last night, I was telling Father once again, I want to KNOW the genetic makeup of that power. I want to see and understand the molecular structure of it. What does it look like on the other side of the veil? How does it work? So many questions about His power.
Proud
I feel super proud of the fact I have done the work over the last 30-plus years to develop such impeccable fruit inside. Mankind has no idea of the volume of forgiveness I have had to dole out in my lifetime. Following Father as I have…has been strength training like man doesn’t understand.
In thinking this morning about why I do what I do…the only answer is love. This ole gal forgives the worst…because I love. I choose to love instead of hate. To love those who have persecuted me in the past instead of holding it against them.
Bobbi and I were talking about it last night. She said…it takes too much energy to hold grudges. I said a hearty amen to that. It is exhausting. I don’t want to carry the weight of that burden.
It makes me feel good to know that is my nature…the character of my womanhood. It is a gift that keeps on giving…to me…to others. 💜
Reason #3
The third reason I titled this post The Walk relates to the Bride and the concept of her moving into a 40-year Wilderness season soon.
Man…to be honest, that has been a struggle for my heart. I have not enjoyed watching people suffer. My preference has always been for people to be obedient…which keeps you from suffering at Father’s hands. No one can bring you pain like He can. He will make you bow…in ways that will make you regret not bowing before when He was merely smacking your hand.
He starts with minor corrections. If you choose to ignore those minor corrections, He will start amping up the corrections to a level you will wish you had never come to experience. Father will always get His way…at man’s expense.
Always better to humbly bow and obey. A.L.W.A.Y.S.
Foolish Virgins
During my study of Christianity…mainly the NAR charismatic crazies…I saw thousands of foolish virgins claiming my story as their own. Also “prophesying” it to the masses like my story is their story. They each believe they are the chosen one. Call themselves the chosen ones. This makes me scratch my head in logical wonder. How did one become the masses? One means one mathematically…not two…not ten…not thousands. The math isn’t mathing here. Did they miss math and logic class?
These same women are claiming their kingdom spouse is coming for them…completely clueless…that means the truth. Christ is coming to bring the truth to the masses. In addition, they are moving around because they believe my story…the one they are hearing from Father about me…is Him talking to them about them. Him commanding them to move. They have shared how they are sitting there waiting for Father to do something for them.
This has hurt my heart at times…to see them buy into the deception. Reading the comments of thousands of people believing they are in the Wilderness already, waiting on something to happen that will never happen, waiting on this massive wealth transfer into their bank accounts, etc. Each commenting how obedient they have been…even saying they are radically obedient to Christ. The masses believing their suffering is for Christ…not because they are reaping what they have sown.
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The Horror
They all believe they are called to save the masses. Going to be appointed to some high position in Father’s Kingdom. Fame and fortune are coming their way while they sit on their rear ends waiting. NOT working those asses off…just sitting there waiting for Him to come in and give them all these blessings…for nothing.
Sometimes, I feel the horror of their realization of the truth when it comes.
As I have mentioned previously on this blog, years ago, I saw a tsunami coming. Father and I were on a cliff top watching it form and move in from way out in the ocean. I was standing on the cliff screaming down at everyone on the beach to run to high ground. They ignored my warnings.
So many foolish virgins out there who are caught up in deception. This massive river of lies/deception that has been flowing from the dragon’s mouth. I hate it for them. Hate they have invested in a bad product. It will be the ruin of them.
Wilderness Walk
The season coming upon the world is like no other before it. The wilderness walk will require a radically different walk than mankind is accustomed to. A radically different walk than Christianity has been prophesying to the masses.
I believe it is time for the fall of mankind. I am ready to see the proud and arrogant fall. To see mankind humbly bow to the truth. I want to see the world changed in positive ways. Humanity needs a healthy dose of humility.
My head agrees with the plan…but sometimes my heart hurts for the people who are going to be completely unprepared for the hit.
I hate watching people foolishly waste their lives by choosing death day after day. I take great comfort in those who will choose life. Those who will course correct and walk the right way. Christ’s righteous way.
Grandchildren
I want to finish this up with a little bit of trivia about me. My grandchildren are super-duper special to me. When conversing with them, I like to educate them.
Ahnalaya Ann and I have spent hours sitting and discussing a variety of topics…mostly we share a love of nature. When I am sharing my love of nature with her, I usually like to do visuals. I am a visual thinker…I think in pictures, so I like to give the kids a picture to see what I am saying.
This has led us to different videos on YouTube as examples of different animals, insects, trees, leaves, etc.
My grandchildren have come to expect this of me. 😂
I have noticed when I am sharing something with them now…they will say…show me. I usually pull out my phone and bring up an image or a video of whatever the topic is.
Have you seen all the varieties of praying mantis? Oh, my goodness!!! Google them. Such cool-looking critters. For real.
This is what I am doing in the photo with Esme. Giving her a visual of something I was talking to her about. Love this photo. It is me…on a swing…educating with visuals. Screams my personality in every way. 😂
Teapot
Well…this little teapot has been all poured out and is now empty. Bobbi made chicken and Brussels sprouts for dinner. Going to get me something to eat! Smells amazing in this house and I am hungry. I told her…gotta finish this post first. Been trying all day to get it done.
Turns out…this house seems to be Grand Central Station. 🚉😂 I love it. Getting to spend time with the family is tops for me.
Have a MARVY DAY!!!!!