Transformation Specialist

I AM the Transformation Specialist. Christ is the Transformer of lives. He alone is able to transform all areas of your life…permanently…for eternity…body, soul, and spirit.

I have an enormous amount of words to use in this post. It has been percolating in my mind for quite some time now. I have been brewing, chewing, and stewing on this post. Letting it simmer inside until I had the right mindset and heartset to present the information contained within this post. It was/is important to me that I present out of purity of His Spirit instead of impurity of my selfish flesh.

That being said, I feel like this little teapot has steeped long enough on this matter, and I am ready to be tipped over and poured out. 😜🫖 I always sing to Father…just tip me over and pour me out. 😂

Photos

Per usual…when I have a long post, I try to break the words up with photos. Before I start talking about the whole concept of transformation, I want to share a bit of trivia regarding the photos. It gives more meaning to them…bringing understanding to the mind. Gives you, the reader, the ability to intimately know what is going on behind the photos.

This blog is about my lifestyle…which includes those in my life. Bobbilicious calls it our family scrapbook. It is our story playing out on a blog. Our little reality show. The realness of life instead of the fake bullshit man creates on TV reality shows. Nothing you find in our lives is staged for appearances. You get the real deal here.

The featured image is a photo I took after walking into the camper some time back. My grands…along with Vanessa are pretty ate up with the Transformers. Ahnalaya Ann had built this garage for her transformers out of her magnets and added some kind of minefield in front of them. I thought it was super cool looking, so I snapped a photo. I realize the transformers in the background are a bit blurry. Didn’t notice that when I snapped it. I apologize. Now…when I say I apologize…I am saying that in my best Larry the Cable Guy voice impression. Ya know when he says…”Lord, I apologize?” 🤷‍♀️ It is what it is.

The Fence

Donovan and Mitchell both wanted a fence that completely enclosed the backyard at Mitchell’s. One side was missing, along with a partial side cutting through the driveway.

Mitchell was on the fence about building the fence now. 😜

He wasn’t liking the idea of pulling money out of savings for it. In one weekend…this one…he had a lot of money exiting his savings.

Mitchell has a buddy who is a tree trimmer. Mitchell used to help him on occasion. He hired the guy to cut down a dead tree which was becoming dangerous. That was one financial hit this weekend.

He had also purchased a garage/building/barn. He had 11 tons of gravel hauled out and dumped in his backyard in the corner Saturday morning after he and Donovan built the perimeter pad for the building. When I arrived Saturday morning, Mitchell was shoveling gravel while Donovan was running errands for supplies for the day. He says Donovan is a slave driver. 😂 Everything in one weekend. I laughed and said…he is my mini-me. Did you expect different?

Friday night, the men got the posts secured in the ground.

Donovan and Mitchell neither one has ever built a fence before…however, that doesn’t stop Donovan…ever. He did the measurements, built the plans, created a material list, and said “we can do it.” Since Mitchell was on the fence about spending the money…Donovan said…I will pay half. SOLD…Mitchell agreed. 😂

They went halfsies on everything…money, time, and labor. Beautiful partnership if you ask me. A win-win for them both. The grands are safer playing outside, and everyone has more privacy. Love it! A win for the entire family.

Blue

The second bit of trivia is about the blue Camry sitting there. I find our family a bit humorous. When Mitchell and Bobbi bought the new Camry, they wanted that exact blue you see on the rental car sitting in their driveway. They ended up with a different color. 🤷‍♀️

When Donovan took Bobbi to get her rental car since the accident took hers out, two Camrys were parked in the parking lot. One was gray, the other one is the blue one you see here. Donovan pointed them both out to Bobbi as they were pulling in, and he said to her excitedly…I hope you get the blue one. He loves the color blue too. It happens to be my favorite color. 😍

When I pulled into their driveway that evening, I was enthralled by that blue. I walked into the house sharing my awe of the blue coloring. It has brought a lot of laughter to our little family because we are all enthralled by the blue. Been a topic of fun joyful discussion for us. It is more than just a rental vehicle to me…it represents the unity in the family home I have built over the years.

Mr. Mitchell Man

That last bit of trivia means a lot to my heart. I find it sweet. It is love in the heart.

Little Ahnalaya Ann absolutely adores Mr. Mitchell Man. That man walks on the moon to her. She LOVES him.

This past summer, he and Bobbilicious were browsing around in a local shop. Mitchell saw this little leather pouch purse that had a dinosaur stitched on it. The purse is set apart. Very different. Pricey. Classy. Upscale. Mitchell’s taste in all things is very unusual. He was always going against the grain of society and trends even as a child. He bought it for Ahnalaya Ann because she loves dinosaurs, and this purse is right up his alley in style. Super unique and not cheap in any way. A mature-looking style.

She LOVED/LOVES the purse. Dinosaurs…and a gift from a man she dearly loves…duh!!! She carries it sling style with special little trinkets in it.

While helping Donovan and Mitchell by giving them screws, she was wearing that little purse. So flipping adorable in every way. I see just the outline of that purse on her left hip and smile. To me…it is a picture of…a symbol of…a representation of the love shared in the hearts of two people I love the most in this world.

There is always more to the story than the pictures show. This is why I expose the heart behind my photos. If I don’t tell you…you don’t know. 🤷‍♀️ I want you to KNOW. The point of this blog is love and intimacy. I am feeding you love and intimacy so you can consume it. To fill your bellies…meet your needs…body, soul, and spirit.

There ya go, now you know.

Sleeping Beauty

Wow…almost overwhelmed at starting this part of the post. Sometime…maybe a couple of weeks ago, I had this amazing encounter with Father. So many rapid changes are happening for me in my life. I am having trouble keeping track of it all. Feel as if I am moving at the speed of light. I keep singing to Him the lyrics from Dizzy by Freddy Weller and Tommy Roe. “You’re making me dizzy…my head is spinning.”

One morning, I woke up from the dream-like state I have been living in the last seven years. It was Sleeping Beauty waking up. Every single Disney princess is a picture of me. A symbolic representation of a portion of my life. I have not enjoyed the process. The dream-like state was my prison.

It felt like the floor of the supernatural realm gave way…just disappeared and I fell back into reality again. Crazy life I live. Crazy. For real. The story I was trapped in…disappeared.

Wizard of Oz

I was back in normalcy land. Like Dorothy clicked her red slippers and was suddenly back home. I am home again. My normal state of Crystal Ann Laura in the mind.

Since then, I have just been cleaning up a few loose ends of what all that was. Getting clarity on things.

One small…very tiny portion of this awakening…is a reset. A mighty reset. I was telling the girls…I feel like a reset button was hit/pushed/tripped. It is like the past seven years not only disappeared…it is like it never happened. It feels like the book was shut. Closed. That part of my life is over and done with forever.

It also feels as if I have entered the unknown. Think Frozen. I am there now. The other day, Father and I were singing the song Starting Over by John Lennon. It feels true. My new life has started. The old came to an end.

Strong Man

Another very small…tiny portion of this awakening is a falling. During this time, I changed the way I was requesting how to get out of the dream/story.

This is how I said it.

Father/Christ/Spirit…I need you to bind the strong man of__________, tear down the stronghold of___________, and make the entire kingdom fall. I want the entire kingdom, strong man, and stronghold demolished.

Now…I did this to two separate strongmen, strongholds, and kingdoms. Both are very important to me.

I started saying that on repeat. Did that for hours one day.

Listen…that request made shit happen…AND FAST.

We had a great fall. What does that all mean? Still unsure…but wow…there was POWER in those requests. Of course, I added other things to it which are detailed and specific to my situation, but that is it in simple format. In a nutshell.

Life and Death

Why do I feel a bit overwhelmed at starting this post you might wonder. Well…by George…let me explain that to you. 🤨

For starters, I feel like I am writing a whole new book every time I write a post. For real. 😮

Also…this is the start of something new. A new era. The importance of this is astronomical in size. Gargantuan. Ginormous. Can’t express the magnitude of the significance…the momentousness of this. Eternal souls are at stake. I don’t take this lightly. Not by a long shot. Always…always I feel the weight of that responsibility. Always.

During my awakening and the tearing down of the strong man and the kingdom…I was driving over the interstate. As I was driving past the on-ramp and the exit ramp…He reminded me of a conversation we had some time before that…actually a continuation of a 30-year conversation about Moses and the Israelites. More specifically…Mt. Gerizim and Mt. Ebal in Deuteronomy 11.

Enter/Exit

One small portion of this convo is about the fact following Christ is taking a road. A path. Like on the interstate…the road of following Christ has an entrance to it…and an exit. You can choose to follow or not. Also…you can choose to follow for a time and then make an exit and go your own way. It is the parable of the seeds sown. Some are snatched away by the birds never to grow and produce fruit.

Some start to grow but are choked out by the cares of this world when the purification fire gets too hot for the person. They can die a spiritual death…divorce Christ…never to remarry Him again. Can’t crucify Christ a second time. Once you are lost…you are lost forever. You can burn in the fire with Him here on Earth or burn for eternity in Hell for Him there.

Your Choice

It is all up to you what you choose. I have said that on repeat here on this blog. Will repeat that thousands if not millions of times until I die probably. Hopefully not, but we will see.

This post…at the very root…is about which way you choose to live life. What path you choose to follow. Man’s…or Christ’s?

In the Bible, this is all laid out for you in Deuteronomy 11…you will see that His nation…His people/children were given a choice.

IF they chose to follow Father’s ways…obey His commands…the rules of His household/community/nation…they would receive eternal life…with eternal blessings.

IF they chose NOT to follow Father’s ways…but to make their own way…obey self and mankind…then they would receive death and eternal curses.

You only have two options. T.W.O.

Christianity teaches the old covenant is dead and gone. WRONG! That is a lie. It was UPGRADED. The frame/structure/operating system is the same…it just got an upgrade with Christ/through Christ.

Concept

The concept of life and blessings…death and curses are still in effect today. Mt. Gerizim…Mt. Ebal.

If you don’t believe me…ask yourself this question. Do you want eternal life and blessings from Father? If you answer that question yes…then you better look at the other half of the equation. Hell is real. Read the last book of the Bible. He is crystal clear about how this all ends…especially for Satan…your enemy.

Do you want justice for how the wicked have wronged you? If you answer yes to that question, then you KNOW intimately in your heart and mind that curses…consequences must come to those who do not obey the laws. This is why we punish criminals and put them in prison and/or to death. There are consequences or curses attached to breaking the laws of the land. No different in Father’s Kingdom. You break the law…you must be punished. 🤷‍♀️

It is what it is. Like it, love it, or hate it…it is unchangeable. Immovable. Truth that will never change despite your acceptance or rejection of it. Best to get on board the boat and set sail with life. Hate to see you left behind to drown in your own ocean of disobedience and the consequences of.

You can enter into His Marriage Covenant through a life of obedience to/with Christ. Mt. Gerizim…Father’s ways.

You can choose to reject Christ’s hand in marriage…living eternally with death and curses. Mt. Ebal…man’s ways.

Transformation Specialist

Let’s chat about how this Transformation Specialist seed got planted and where I am going with this topic.

A while back, I saw this short marketing video clip advertising for a company. He was marketing himself as his brand. He was a transformation specialist…and he could transform your life. That was the simple message of the short little video clip. You have probably seen oodles of them in your life. They are a dime a dozen.

It intrigued me…because it was a scam. A sham. The guy is a con artist doing a con on the people. A scammer scamming the people. A salesman doing a sales pitch…for a bad product. A salesman selling. A liar lying to make money.

For some reason, scams get my attention pretty quickly. I am like an investigative journalist on a hunch…following a lead. A coon dog who has treed a raccoon…barking the entire time. Like a bird dog pointing at a bird. I have to understand the scam. Gotta see behind the con. 🤷‍♀️

Insight

I want to share with you some insights from both the natural and supernatural realms here.

Some of this is common sense and logic. Lots of math here if you have the eyes to see it. Some of the math I will mention briefly. Many layers to this. Layers to everything.

I want to share the layers because I want YOU to see the scam…for yourself with your own eyes. I want you to understand the scam behind this. This way…you get to make an informed decision before you buy.

It is important to me…you count the cost of what you are purchasing BEFORE you make the purchase. To sink your money into a scam is costly…but to sink your soul into a scam…will cost you more than you want to pay. Out of a heart of love…I want YOU to KNOW the truth.

Example

This video is only ONE example of millions happening daily across this world. My hope is…to lay a foundation for you using this little video. All the little details I share are important details for you to see the picture I am painting. I am using a wide brush…and tiny brushes. There are always many pieces to make the puzzle. Many pixels to form the picture.

I share this example with you in this genre of the world. However, this is in every single genre of this world. You can hire these “specialists” in every field. Lots of people arrogantly believe they are experts and/or have the solutions for your problems/issues in your life. They have the answer. Pay them a set fee and they will “set you free” from all your problems.

You can spend your entire life and your entire net worth hiring a multitude of “specialists” to “transform” your life in whatever areas you choose. You can do it man’s ways…only “transforming” very tiny, small fractions of one part of one body…temporarily. The process will be discombobulated, chaos, and confusion only to frustrate you in the end.

OR you can submit to Christ and He…as ONE man…can transform your entire life for you…for eternity. Guaranteed. Christ’s way is more efficient and permanent reaching across all three bodies bringing them into unity starting at the root of ALL your issues…your heart. IF you get the heart right…the rest will fall into place naturally and supernaturally. His transformation will transform the wholeness of who you are…100% of all three bodies. 100% transformation instead of a fraction of a fraction.

So important to do the math.

Investing

I am always talking about investing. It is super important to invest in your eternal future.

If you follow man’s ways…you are making short-term gains in this world to have long-term losses eternally in the Heavenly world. Temporary gains for eternal losses. Temporary pleasure for eternal pain and torture. Pain, torture, and torment beyond your ability to imagine. 24/7 forever.

Think about that…for real. I am not a liar. I am not selling you anything. This ole gal is educating you with truth. I stand nothing to gain here for telling you the truth. Not asking you for anything. I am not a seller selling a product. I am giving you the opportunity to see the truth for yourself and think about it. In this example, as I share…multiply it by billions of examples in this world of men and women who are a carbon copy of the man in this example. Billions of people live this way. Absolutely NOTHING special about them that sets them apart from anyone else. They are commoners.

If you follow Christ’s ways…you will experience short-term losses here in this world to reap eternal gains in Heaven. Temporary losses for eternal gains. Temporary pain for eternal pleasure. I am talking blissful pleasure. Pleasure beyond anything here that you consider pleasurable. Pleasure beyond your wildest imagination. 24/7 forever.

The Dead Man

I am going to call the man in this example…the dead man. That is what Father has titled him for me as we have spoken about him in our conversations.

The reason is…he is a spiritual dead man. This man doesn’t have the life of Christ within him…even though he claims Christ and Christianity. He has not been birthed into the Kingdom of Christ. His heart is all about himself. Not Christ. This man has built/is building his own kingdom. He is king of his castle. He built his little snow globe, and he is the star of the show. Center stage.

He has built his own platform/pedestal to be elevated upon. All the people in his life…hold that platform up for him. They lift him up. Tell him how wonderful he is and help assist him in puffing up his own ego…feeding his arrogant flesh. The people around him bow down to him…are his servants. He wants to BE served BY others…NOT TO serve others.

The man has narcissistic tendencies. An overinflated ego.

As we go through the example, I will show you layers/signs/fruits to look for. The heart motives underneath it all. Behind the scenes. This is common sense, logic, reasoning, and critical thinking all wrapped up in one package here.

One phrase Father kept saying to me on repeat about this man was this…Transcendental Meditation. Then…paganism. Humanism. Moral Relativism. I got what He was saying…this man…like billions of others…are chanting their own mantras…transformation specialist…I am a transformation specialist.

Transcend

They do this to transcend and become a higher power…to reach their “crown chakra” so to speak. Become their own god. They build their version of a kingdom of heaven on Earth and keep chanting their god-like status to self on repeat…and to the masses. They want to believe their own false narrative/my truths…and they want to convince you of those same lies/deception as well. It is a salesman selling his own brand. A seller selling self. A snake oil salesman.

They become a higher power to self…in self. Then…when you elevate them…you are making them a higher power to you. You…have elevated them above you…to a god-like status. THIS really puffs their ego up. Internally…to self…they have transcended to become their higher power. They walk around with their head held high…crowns on. Externally…when you elevate their ego…YOU have made them transcend in your heart and mind to become a higher power.

You are making them greater than you in certain areas of life. This is exactly what they wanted you to do. Man elevating man. Humanism. You are self-demoting and elevating another human being to be greater than you…instead of equal to you. YOU put a crown on their head too. Crowned them as some king.

Fools

In this post, I am going to show you…this man puts his pants on every day just like you do. He sits on the pot and takes a shit too. He is NOT worthy of your elevation. Not worthy of your following. This man and billions of others in this world, are on your level…not above it. Stop putting men and women on a pedestal they don’t deserve to be on. They are fallen human beings just like you. They are not worthy of your adoration. Your praise. Your worship. See them for who they really are. Fools wallowing in their folly.

Don’t be seduced by their manipulation. Their charm. Their charisma. Look at the whole picture instead of a fraction of it. THINK about what you are seeing in front of you. Also, think about what you ARE NOT seeing behind the scenes.

These people manipulate you wanting you to believe they love you and care about you. They have your best interest in their heart. They are liars full of shit…feeding you bullshit. These people only care about themselves. Salesmen use smooth-talking words to make the sale. They want the commission. THINK about that. Stop and think about what someone is selling you and why.

It is rare to find a salesman who is more concerned about you rather than making the sale. Selling is how they make their money. When you put money into the equation…it perverts all heart motives. Always keep the money trail in the forefront of your mind.

If you want the product because to you it has value…by all means…buy it. But look at the TRUE value of the product before you spend your hard-earned money.

Fame/Fortune

They do this for two main reasons. Fame. Fortune.

Fortune. They want the money and all the things it can buy. Materialism. Give me. Give me. Give me. I want. I want. I want. They are never satisfied with what they have. Always wanting more stuff. I call this the wantsies.

Fame. They want everyone to praise them and worship them. Bow down to them and obey their commands. Everyone needs to see their value and worth…the one they have self-valued and inflated. Tell them how smart they are. Tell them how inspirational they are. Please tell them how powerful they are. Get the picture? All about following their lead and giving them lots of kudos/pats on the back/affirmation/etc. You HAVE to tell them how wonderful they are. They NEED the praises of man. It is one addiction out of a cocktail of many drugs they use to make themselves FEEL better.

Fame and fortune are two drugs out of a MUTLITUDE they are using to self-medicate. Self soothe. To self comfort. Solutions for them to get out of internal pain from their soul man and spirit man. These people are using and abusing you…for their own gain, glory, and benefit. You are NOTHING to them. N.O.T.H.I.N.G

You are a paycheck and a snort of cocaine to hype them up.

Don’t be deceived by the players in this world playing you.

The 411

After seeing the little video, I spent maybe five or 10 minutes doing a bit of online research about the man and his company. Truly…in five minutes on social media…I got what I needed to see. The signs/fruits are the same across this world. Once you know them…you recognize bullshit immediately.

Let’s walk through this together.

This guy has given himself many titles. Has been busy building his little empire. Through my research, I discovered he owns at least two businesses. The first business is a gym.

Think about the responsibility of owning a business. If you have ever owned one…you know that responsibility experientially. Stressful. To make a business work…you must WORK it. It takes an enormous amount of YOUR time…physically in the body. Hours of labor. Then mentally and emotionally…it is taxing. It occupies a significant space in your mind…24/7. You are always thinking about the past…the present…and the future of the business. This is a HUGE investment in one person…24/7. No joke.

Responsibilities

This business isn’t just about one man…it involves others. Relationships with other people. Employees. Recruiting, hiring, and firing. Always dealing with employees. Stressful. Payroll. Making sure the employees are behaving as they should. Doing their jobs as you have laid out in their job description.

Addition here…add to the mathematical story problem…clients. You have customers. Customer relations. Trying to keep those customers happy and coming back. Talk about work. 😳

Add to that another layer of the daily and monthly financial burdens. My friend is a personal trainer. In the past, he gave me the downlow on how most gyms operate. He used to own one himself. Since then, he has worked at one gym for many years. Good friends with the owner of the gym he works at. Most gyms lease their equipment. Can’t afford to own the building and the equipment so they lease instead.

To make a business last…you gotta make enough income to cover the expenses each month. You have to be able to pay those monthly payments. Don’t make the mistake of thinking that financial burden isn’t on the owner’s mind 24/7. Some months are harder, so their burden is heavier to carry. Money tends to be at the forefront of every man’s mind. Especially men as they were created to be the providers.

This is why I say on repeat…keep the money trail at the forefront of your mind. The desire/desperation for money inside man…PERVERTS all motives. Facts.

Personal Training

At his gym, he is a personal trainer and runs group classes.

This is not a man who is handing his business over to someone else. He is intimately involved in this business. Being a personal trainer, he is actively training his own body…not just others. He has to look the part. Look like the expert. In my research, I noticed he is pretty buff. LOVES to post videos of his body.

Reminds me of the men and women in the gym who like to stare at themselves in the mirrors. ALL about appearances. This is such a powerful sign to see. If a person is all about their physical appearance…this is a sign they are deceiving you. They want to show you good…not bad. Moral relativism here…what THEY have defined as good…not what is Father’s definition of good.

They fear rejection. Everything must look so so according to the false narrative/foundation they are building their kingdom on. Very insecure people NEEDING the hit/snort of the praises of man.

Using

When I see men and women THAT buff…I always question steroid use. This is UNBELIEVABLY common in the gym. My personal training friend and I have talked about steroid use at different times. He is a naturalist and seriously against steroid use. He has educated me on the topic. I am not saying this man is a steroid user…but I am saying…it is an X or a Y in a mathematical equation. An unknown. A thought to add when evaluating this type of scenario. It is an important piece of the puzzle because when people are using and abusing drugs to build an appearance…it is a symptom of a heart issue. Another sign of another toxin within.

Also…when a man is that big from working out…that tells you he is spending a large amount of time working out. It adds to the equation of his narcissistic tendencies. All about self. All about appearances. His time belongs to him…to build him up.

Another sign…when you see someone who is that buff…you can logically deduce they spend a lot of time in the gym working on their appearance. This is a sign of a heart issue…but also a spiritual strong man…stronghold. An addiction. An idol. It is idolatry which has demonic ties behind it. It is a sign of demonic ties and oppression. There are always signs for everything.

It would be equally true when you see a 600lb person…it is a sign of a strong man…a stronghold within that person. The demonic ties are different because the seeds planted by the enemy are different. They are manifesting what they believe and what the oppressions are. We are to always look for the signs.

Additional Position

In addition to this, our dead man was appointed to another position at another company. I didn’t spend 30 seconds on that information. I saw it and moved on. It is another piece of the puzzle here. We can already see this guy has a LOT of irons in the fire. LOTS of stuff on his plate. This man is busy…BUSY.

Add another level/layer of stress on top of his already stressful life. Now he has more people to deal with. Has to please others in that position. The dude is slowly killing himself. For what? 🤷‍♀️ Layers and layers of stress this man is CHOOSING to add to his life and carry. AND HE IS SELLING TO YOU…HE IS A TRANSFORMATIONAL SPECIALIST???? 🤯🤯🤯🤦‍♀️

Makes me wonder why he feels the need to be so busy. It is another layer…another sign of the heart issues in the man. Toxicity. Signs of diseases in the soul and spirit. Insecurities.

Marriage

He is also married.

Wow…I am overwhelmed by his life already…and there is so much more I haven’t shared yet.

Just think about marriage for a moment. Think about trying to build a relationship with a partner. Think about the time investment alone that is supposed to take from you out of your life to build a lasting relationship with someone you profess to love.

Then addition here…add to that the mental investment a marriage is supposed to take out of your thoughts. You are supposed to have TIME to think about your life partner. TIME TO THINK ABOUT THEM.

Then addition here…add to that the emotional investment a marriage is supposed to take from your heart. If you are in a life-giving relationship with a partner…it is a partnership…not they bow down to you while you do you baby.

A marriage is not supposed to be enslavement where one partner is the slave and the other is the master.

This man’s wife is bowing to this man 24/7 because he comes first in his world. That is a fact.

Children

Add to this story problem equation…the man has children. 😳 Didn’t look to see how many…didn’t care…doesn’t matter at this point in time. They are not at the top of his priority list no matter how many he co-created. Only the king of this home is the priority.

I wonder how much time they get from their dad. I bet not much.

Let’s do a little deducing here. Common sense tells me since this man is ALL about athletics…and he is a commoner…his kids are in sports. This is a no brainer here. Preschool math.

Multiple kids in multiple sports throughout the year just like the masses. That means lots of practices and games. Running. Running. Running.

This means not much personal one on one attention between dad and child. Each child. Add the kid’s school schedules and other events into this equation and the family is always busy doing shallow shit that builds absolutely nothing eternal in Heaven. All of it to be daily debited out of their Heavenly bank account. Negative. Negative. Negative…always borrowing money from Christ moment by moment. Adult children buying candy that makes you feel good but is slowly destroying your body.

When is the man investing in his fatherhood? His children? His marriage. His wife? When does he have time?

Christianity

Add to the equation, the man claims he is a Christian. Saw online he is always selling Jesus. Posting scriptures for the masses to see how good of a person he is. He is a Christian preaching and selling Christ so you can trust him to guide you rightly.

It is quite obvious he is a religious man. Equally obvious he is not in an intimate relationship with Christ. If he was…Holy Spirit would be convincing his heart to allow Christ to TRANSFORM his life.

When does this man have time to sit and listen to Father? I am sure he probably attends Christian services weekly somewhere. Gotta go to church. Gotta LOOK the part. All about appearances.

Life Coaching

Let’s ADD ONE MORE business to his schedule. He is a self-appointed life coach too. Not only is he ALL of the things above, but this man can bring you life through his transformational coaching.

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!! Let’s all be amazed by how smart and awesome this guy is!!! 🤨🙄😜

Are you saying wow? Cuz I am saying wow…not a wow like I am in awe, but wow as in…wow…you are embarrassing wow. 🤦‍♀️

The world has totally lost the concept of shame and embarrassment. We need a healthy dose of that back in society. Humility is a GOOD thing people.

Ok…so through his life coaching and personal training…as the transformational specialist…he is going to transform your life.

He will throw a bit of Christ in there for the Christian clients to make them feel good. Then he will be like all the other life coaches in this world and transformational specialists and use positive psychology. They will build up your flesh…both the physical body flesh…muscular…but also your carnal mind…soulful sinful flesh. Humanism. Elevate you. Puff you up. Tickle your ears. Tell you positive things to make you FEEL better. Lie to you.

They will tell you catch phrases like Joel Osteen…you need to live your best life now. You need to take care of self and do what makes you happy. Live the good life. Cuz they want you to thrive and flourish in this world. You are enough. You are good. Capable. Important. Live YOUR life to the fullest!!!

Behavior Management

It is about behavior management. I have talked about this in the past here on this blog. They want to help you make “healthier habits.” Take control of YOUR life. Help you be the best you…so you can live that best life now bullshit mantra.

Let me clue you in on a truth here. Behavior management is just that…managing your behavior. It is NOT setting you free from bad behaviors. This is treating the symptom NOT getting to the root of the problem to start with.

It is like treating the symptoms of the autoimmune disease you have…NOT getting to the root of what caused you to have the autoimmune disease in the beginning. If you want a cure…you must get to the source of what caused you to be sick in the first place.

Your bad behaviors are stemming from two places. The lie-based belief system in your heart…and your mind. Your soul. AND your spirit. If you don’t deal with the roots in your soul and spirit man…you are only managing a very tiny fraction of 1/3 of your body.

Transformation

Let’s add all this up now…what we have looked at above.

Bottom line…this man NEEDS a transformation. He needs his life transformed for real…cuz his covering is Venom. A demonic parasite is slowly sucking every bit of life out of this man. Killing him slowly.

This man is spread so thin…he is skating on VERY THIN ICE. He is going down if he keeps this pace up much longer.

It reminds me of a convo I had years ago with a woman I was mentoring. She came to me singing the praises of a local woman whom she claimed was a super mom. Same math problem as above. This woman was married with four children, had her own business. Had an additional job. Was obsessed with the gym and her appearances.

I told my friend who was singing about this woman…WHOA!!! Let’s back up and think about this logically. I shared the same stuff with her that I just shared above. I told her…I can guarantee one thing…she isn’t doing ANY of this well. She is barely hanging on because you can’t possibly juggle that many things for any length of time and anything turn out well.

Not long after that…my friend started to see the truth. Later…the superwoman’s world crashed. Her little kingdom fell. The snow globe busted. She was publicly exposed. Adultery…alcohol and drug abuse. Her entire life came crashing down at her feet. Marriage and business failed.

You can only be stretched so far before you break.

Specialist

Is that the kind of person you want to hire to transform your life? In any area of life? For real?

You can’t be narrow minded in how you look at situations. You must look at the bigger picture AND the little details. About the situation. About the people in your life. Especially when someone is trying to sell you something.

When these life coaches and transformational specialists are telling you what you want to hear…think about WHY they are doing that. What is the motive behind it? If money is involved…you can bet the farm…money is one motive of many.

When someone isn’t willing to speak harsh truths to you to help you…they don’t care about your soul. They don’t love you and care about where you are going to spend eternity.

A man who is enslaved can’t possibly set you free. He must be free himself before he can lead you into freedom.

What makes anyone think any of these people are specialists? Because some other man gave them a certificate? They went to a college to get some degree in psychology?

Arrogance

Have you ever thought about how arrogant it is for a man to think he knows how a man works? How arrogant it is for man to believe they know the truth about the inner workings of mankind? About the arrogance of assumption instead of asking the ONE who created man?

Do you really believe man is the source of life? Man is sterile.

The flesh of man can NOT give birth to the spirit of man. ONLY His Spirit can give birth to a spiritual man.

Man’s flesh can NOT penetrate His spirit. All matters of His Spirit are done through and by His Spirit.

A Thought

Another fraction in coming to the conclusion this man is a con man conning…his life coaching/transformational specialist is a scam is this.

Add all this up…the man is under enormous stress…all by his own choices. He has chosen death. He gets to lay in that bed he built for himself.

Do you really believe he cares about your life? Cares about your heart? Cares about helping you? Seriously? Do you?

Add up the layers of stress on his life in all these places and tell me you believe when he spends 30 minutes with you while you are PAYING him to “help transform” your life…that you have those FULL 30 minutes of his time. 30 minutes SOLELY focused on you and you alone? If you believe that…you are deceived. That man’s mind is going 100 miles an hour in many different places.

Any life coaching he gives you is out of a can. He has pieced together NON original thoughts from multiple people of things he likes. Puts them together and doles that shit out to all his clients. It is a cookie cutter approach to coaching. Say the same stuff to different people. No originality. No customization. A one size fits all approach.

Time

Look at the average life coaching time schedule. Even personal training. At the most…30 minutes up to three times a week for a season of time. Do you really think this small investment of time is going to transform your world? From a man who doesn’t give a flying shit about your soul? A man who tells everyone the same lies he is feeding you to puff up your ego so you can in turn puff his ego up…cuz he made you feel so good about yourself?

How long is that good feeling going to last you?

Maybe he helps you feel better about your appearance because you gained muscle strength in the gym. Ok…for how long? What happens when you stop working out? Do you find another drug to snort to get the same hit? Find another solution to manage your feelings inside because that man didn’t fix the inner issue. He merely helped you cover it up like a cat covering up shit.

Maybe you physically feel better, look better, and are healthier muscularly…how does that help you long term? Your body is going to age and die. Facts. 🤷‍♀️ If you focus only on the body but not clean up the soul and spirit…when you meet your Maker…all that counts against you in the end.

Compromised

Another question to ponder.

Do you think a worldly compromised Christian can transform your soul? Your life? Your spirit?

The man in the example above claims Christ. He is also SUPER compromised. A very worldly man. Doing everything his way…man’s ways…not Christ’s way.

Many Christians claim Christ, but don’t follow Him. They preach scripture yet don’t live it. They are hypocrites.

The man in the example is building for himself NOT for Christ. He has abdicated his role as a spiritual father to his children and his role as a husband to be Christ and lay down his life for his wife. This man expects everyone around him to lay their lives down for him instead.

He is a dead man walking. A phony baloney. A fake. A criminal stealing from Father’s people.

Living Sacrifice

I am going to share some examples…a few of how Father made me do it. Please know I am extreme. He isn’t this extreme with all so I am not asking you to do it exactly as I did. My calling/destiny/purposes are different that anyone else’s.

I was created to be a living sacrifice. As the Second Eve, I had to become like the Second Adam. I was created to become all the sacrifices of the Old Covenant as Christ did. I have been working to be purified to become each offering. Being molded and shaped into this has been excruciating as I have said on repeat. I must become the Red Heifer to cleanse and purify the entire nation. This calls for extreme measures…not for all.

Christ does call us to be living sacrifices. In the example of the man above…he wasn’t sacrificing anything for anyone…but himself.

Christ calls His Bride to sacrifice everything for Him. He laid down His life for you…He wants you to love Him back with that same reciprocity. Lay your life down for Him. It is all about love. He loved you first. Love Him back with that same passion. Desire Him as He desires you.

Financials

Let’s start with money. That hits everyone where it hurts.

For over 30 years now…I have worked for Father without pay. No wages here on Earth to show for the labor I have done. He and I have had MANY conversations about this over the years. I have shared my battle with this on the blog. His financial withholding here…caused me to look at my bad self about money. I can’t tell you how many hours I have spent talking to Him to deal with the toxicity I had within pertaining ONLY to money. H.O.U.R.S. over Y.E.A.R.S.

I was full of toxic fleshly nastiness about money. Money…ALL BY ITSELF. This does not include the thousands of other topics I had toxicity about…just money.

I had to remove my flesh-based beliefs and feelings about money and have Him replace mine…with His. I needed Christ’s truths about money…instead of my own. My motives had to be completely pure both in my heart and mind…so money didn’t taint/distort/pervert my behavior/intentions/actions/words spoken. I had to be purified about money…among thousands of other topics.

I had to remove my fleshly financial covering and replace it with Christ’s perfect financial fleshly covering. This took years because I had MANY layers to dig through. Lots of situations to experience regarding money.

Example

One example stands out to me which I feel led to share.

Years ago, I was teaching a women’s class. After class, the newest addition to the class stopped me in the hallway. She started vomiting her story out as people were walking by. It was a pretty rough story. I stopped her and asked if we could talk somewhere privately instead.

This conversation led to a relationship between us for several years. I worked with her and grew to love her dearly. In a nutshell, her husband was having an affair. He was divorcing her…leaving her with four children. During their marriage, he had complete control over everything. He was an abusive man.

She was devastated and super lost. No direction. Terrified. Completely oblivious to so many things in life. She had no idea how to handle money. Had never written a check in her life. Had no idea how to pay a bill. Basic life concepts were lost on her because of the control this man had over her life. She had always been a stay-at-home mom.

I took her under my wing and began to teach her. I walked through those years with her…daily.

Shortly after her husband moved out, I went to her home to teach her all things related to finances. How to write checks, pay bills, how to figure out what bills she actually had, and I built a budget for her. I wanted her to learn how to manage money for herself.

Once we gathered up all the monthly bills she had, I quickly reached the conclusion…she was WAY short in her account.

Generosity

I felt like Father was telling me to write her a check for $500.00. This was before all the digital cash apps.

At the time, I was married. I stepped outside to call my husband. I shared the situation with him and said to him…I think Father is saying to give her this money. She isn’t going to be able to pay the bills without it. I wanted his permission and to make sure it was Father. Father always unifies two people who are listening to His Spirit. My husband immediately agreed to give her the money.

I went back into the house and wrote her the check. Finished filling out her budget and taught her how to run it.

I share this example because this has loads of lessons contained within it about what true life coaching really is. What being a transformational specialist is.

Trenches

When I help people…coach them and bring transformation into their lives…I am in the trenches with them. I hold their hands while they are in pain. I walk through the pain with them. This is not merely giving someone catch phrases to make them feel better. I am about giving them truth…and real-life solutions to walk them out of the bondage they are in. I teach them to fish.

This woman, I worked with for years. Spent money on her. Never once did I get paid for what it cost me in time, labor, and expenses.

I selflessly and generously GAVE to her. Served her sacrificially. Beyond myself. Why? Because I loved Father…and I loved her. When I say I love and care about someone…I mean it. It is truth. I am not a liar lying to the masses. I show my love through actions…not empty words like these salesmen are doing to you.

Servitude

When you are serving Christ…for real…you are doing it without titles. All these years, I have had no titles. Wife and mother is about it.

It has been without fanfare. No masses puffing me up. Instead…it has been the masses looking down on me like I am stupid, crazy, delusional, uneducated, ignorant, and a fool.

No money. No fame.

Taking me to the lowest places possible to purify my heart and mind while teaching me His ways.

Years ago, I had a single mom with three children need my help with a situation. She needed inner healing. I wasn’t willing to do it over the phone in this situation. I needed to see her face, her posture, and needed to read her body language throughout the process.

She lived eight hours away from me. I drove it…on my dime. I drove eight hours to her…spent the weekend working with her…drove the eight hours back home. She didn’t have the money to pay me. I told her…I never charge so that works for both of us.

I was there to serve her and her children…not my selfish flesh.

During the eight-hour drive to her house, I spent that time seeking Father about her situation. Not only did I invest those hours in her, I invested them in cleaning my flesh up about my issues pertaining to the weekend. Did the same thing on the drive home.

No money…no fame. Didn’t come home and brag on myself to people telling them what selfless act I just did. I am always too busy with my head down working on cleaning up the bad shit inside of me.

Poor in Spirit

With Father, you give out of your poverty.

I once had a woman I was working with who lived about five hours away from me. She was a friend of a friend. That is how most people found me. Word of mouth. I never advertised. In fact, I was triggered every time someone shared what I did with someone else. I didn’t want to do inner healing with people. Not my idea. It was Father’s plan. I spent years doing inner healing work on myself on the fact I had to do inner healing on others. Not kidding.

This woman was in a BAD situation. Abusive. I was concerned for her safety and that of her baby’s. On repeat, I told her…just say the word and I will drop what I am doing to come pick you both up. She eventually did phone a friend and got out. Her friend brought her back to my area.

For one solid month, I spent every afternoon with her at my house…between 2-4 hours…doing inner healing to clean up the drama/trauma she had just lived through. Every. Single. Day. Then we started working together over the phone several times a week, until after a few months…she was good to go on her own.

Didn’t get paid for any of that. Only she and my family knew I was working with her.

Sermon on the Mount

I can’t tell you how many hours I spent seeking Father for this woman and her baby. Also, I can’t tell you how many hours I spent seeking Father to clean me up…so I could be a less jammed up vessel for His Spirit to flow through. I KNEW I didn’t have the answers for her. Only He did. I was desperate for Him to help me help her.

It wasn’t just her soul at stake…she had a sweet little child’s soul at stake too. The responsibility I felt was huge.

I continuously gave Him my brokenness to heal it so I could be used to bring healing to her. I was giving out of my poverty.

Being poor in spirit, means in part…being humble. Humbly coming before Father like a little child saying Father…I don’t know. Tell me what you know. Help me do what you are asking me to do. I can’t do it in my own strength…I must have yours.

It is realizing as a person that you are merely the created…NOT the Creator. I KNOW that…so I never think I have the answers for any of my clients. He alone has the answers. I am merely a conduit through which He speaks.

Power Strip

In the example of the woman above, she asked me something during that time I will never forget. She asked me this…why is it…that when I am talking to you…I can hear Father clearly? He speaks to me…I see visions. But when I go home or get off the phone and ask Him questions…I can’t hear Him? I don’t get anything.

No one had ever said that to me before, so I was a bit baffled. I said…I don’t know.

After she left, I asked Father about it. I saw a vision of a power strip plugged into the wall. He said to me…you are a power strip. You are always plugged into the power source. Some people come along and plug into you and pull from that power. Then they unplug when they walk away.

It made so much sense to me because for years, working with people used to exhaust me in every way. I always felt so drained when I walked away. As I continued to work on my own bad self…I got cleaner. The veins and arteries became unclogged in my soul man and spirit man and His blood and power could flow through me more freely. The log jams became less which allowed the energy to remain flowing smoothly.

Even though working with people was depleting me each time, I continued to give of myself sacrificially. Continued to do the inner work I needed to do to continue building up Christ’s strength and power within me.

I was giving out of my poverty. Do you see that? Get that concept.

I was putting others over me and above me. I was less and they were more. They were greater than me and I was less than as I gave all I had to build them up Christ’s way.

Vanessa

The last two examples are of my daughters…Vanessa and Hannah. They are both from the same natural/physical/biological mother.

I have said on this blog before, Vanessa was my daughter before she became my daughter in law. I have shared that story somewhere before I am sure of how she came to be my daughter.

Short recap.

She was dating Donovan. Shortly after she started dating him, Father said to me…she is going to become homeless. I want you to take her into your home. She will become your daughter.

Per my S.O.P., I said ok.

I became her supernatural/spiritual mother. Gave birth to life in her. Through most of the years Vanessa and I have known each other…we have lived together. She was first homeless, and lived with me. Then Father made me homeless and I lived with her. During those years, I was training her up to become the woman she is today and will be in the future. She is still in training as we all are if we submit to the training.

Over the years, I have taught her the things her natural mother did not. Her natural mother abdicated her role in training up her daughters to prepare them for this world and the afterworld. I have taken over that role in both Vanessa and Hannah’s lives.

It has been a mighty work and labor out of love.

Investment

The investment has been 24/7. Yes…it is the role of a mother which is what I was created to be. But it is so much more than that. I have been mentoring them. Coaching them. Transforming their lives by working on the issues of the heart.

My girls have had to hear some REALLY painful things out of my mouth about them. I have pushed them to do HARD work…physically in their physical bodies. PLUS hard work in the soul and spiritual bodies. I have worked them out in all three bodies to get true lasting transformation from death to life…eternally. Permanent transformation in wholeness.

I invest in people from a holistic approach not a parts and pieces only to get a fraction of a fraction and temporary changes at best. I want lasting change…that starts in the heart.

Last Example

My last example is Hannah. She is starting to become my pride and joy here.

I can’t share much because she is still in it. Super excited about the day I can freely share her story. It is a doozy. As a prophetic picture of the Bride, He is putting her through it.

Her transformation is going to be quite an amazing story to tell. What I have already seen and experienced with her is mind blowing.

Father is tearing her kingdom down. She had built quite a kingdom. The whole shebang is falling. The changes in her heart are amazing. She is going from negative to positive. Death to life.

SUPER PAINFUL for her. Beyond humiliating. Despite her terror…she is choosing bravery, courage, and leaning on Father’s strength.

While I get the privilege of taking her through it, I hate living with her. I have hated living with all of my children. I love them all, but I want my own space. So, while I am pushing them, Father is pushing me.

He constantly pushes me out of my comfort zone to replace me with Him. Once again…I am giving out of my poverty.

Poured Out

Well…I think this little teapot has been completely poured out. Thinking I will close this post. I started writing it on Sunday, the 20th. Had to process through some other stuff before I could finish this up.

Out of a heart of love, I want you to see the truth for yourself. See the world from a different set of eyes. A whole new worldview. Through what I call the lenses of truth. It will change your perspective on life. About life. It will change the way you feel. Think. Believe. This will truly transform your life in every area of your life.

Please don’t be deceived by the con artists out there in this world who are selling you live your best life now bullshit.

LIVE His life now…not your own.

If they are telling you what makes your flesh feel good…it is a bad product. Don’t buy into it.

Motivational speakers won’t get you into Heaven. They will drive you straight to Hell. That isn’t love…that is hate.

Think about that.

The truth is…it is time for Crystal Ann Laura to live HER best life now. 😜 How bout dem apples?